Type me! Am I an LII, EII, IEI, or ILI ?
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Questionnaire :
Sorry for grammar ! English is my second language !
1. Tell me about yourself:
I am 18M, who am I? throughout my school life, I was the topper of my class (academically); I had no other identity, people/students knew me for my academic excellence. The maintenance of this recognition was what drove me to be work hard; ie. I was afraid to loose my identity. I maintained it until I shifted to an open school for last two years of my high school (open school is where you don't need to fulfill attendance, just give the exams at the end of those two years). During these 2 years, I lost my identity, I was noone; negligible social interaction, I gradually became self-critical, self-loathing. And one day, while suring the web, I encountered typology, and here I am, trying to understand myself to self-improve and accept myself.
2. What do you study or do for a living? How did you come to do that? What do you like or dislike about it?
I would say I chose the wrong career path, I am/was studying for medical entrance exams; because I wanted to help people. But daydreaming about it is lot more fun than understanding exception-full and ultra-complicated shitty-structured chemistry and biology which is just memorization. I don't hate memorizing, its kinda okay. I like physics, but it drains me, I like understanding concepts in physics but not like applying them in questions/word-problems/practicals. I have a complicated relationship with maths, I don't hate it, but also don't love it. I like teaching maths to my younger sister. Here too, I like all the theories, axioms, and postulated, but actually practicing maths like some people love to is not me.
3. What are your values, and why?
I would say my values have developed fairly recently, I am young (maybe that's why?). I believe in tolerance, compassion. 3 years ago, when I got to know about online-privacy, it became one of the things I publicly advocate for. I guess it is my way of some activism ? I am a perfectionist, I want to do everything perfectly, but recently I realized that perfectionism is the killer of progress. For example, to accomplish a goal, if I fail to follow my plan for 4-5 days; I have to restart every-time from scratch, this time with a new approach. I feel connected to disabled/handicapped people, maybe that's why I wanted to become a doctor. I want to understand everything, all subjects/topics, for this I have to find an "opening" to the subject, opening is something that let me transition from a subject I already know to the new one, the opening should be interesting enough otherwise i will skip it. Why I want to understand everything, because I want to simplify it and relate/connect to other subjects. I want to find universal terms/properties across subjects. idk what am I typing at this point. I love my family, my family is everything, no family no me (seriously).
4. What else do you do on a daily basis? What are your interests and hobbies? Why do you do them?
Now let me tell what I REALLY love, I was too late to consider them as actual career path, who knows ? maybe I will eventually pursue them ! I love Maps, non-physical geography, Statistics/Data visually represented, Linguistics, Phonetics, Evolution. What I love about linguistics is how all languages are connected, their common roots and origin, how words have transitioned/transformed over space and time. The same can be said for Evolution I believe. And I just realized, the same can be said for stats/data/maps, as they just show relation/similarities across time (some datas) and space (maps). Maps can be about anything.
I sometimes need to do programming when I have to create something for personal usage, but its mostly, copy-pasta. I don't have problem understanding code. I thought to become a programmer during puberty, but after like 2-3 months, it felt boring, and I can't handle boredom; Work, Interests, hobbies, everything should be fun !
My ideal job would be one that combines all my interests. Example, Computational Linguist.
I surf through the internet most of the time, I want to find something here, idk what it is (ultimate truth? fundamental meaning and framework/flow of life?); I don't usually make accounts on social media, i feel like they capture me in a bubble with their recommendations. By directly searching for content on search engine, I can unlock more content !
5. What do you look for in friends? In romantic relationships?
Deep talks, I had one such friend, we were besties, still are (we are now geographically separated). A friend with whom I don't have to put my mask on, I can be authentic, to the point it can some of my opinions can be offensive. I look for positivity, because I consider myself negative. And we used to joke too much, our every other line was a pun/joke. I am referring him because I want another him as a friend in my life. He probably liked me because I used to help him, you see, he had a bone fracture and got isolated, so I gave hm my company, and that is how we became friends. I also helped him academically, and shared some of my unfair advantages/privileges of being a topper with him. However I don't feel used by him, my insecurities he cleared with his company are far more greater during those puberty years.
Romantic relationships? idk much, I am a pervert if thats informative -_- I have read gulenko's romantic styles, I would say I need a caregiver ! I believe in monogamy (I should not share these things >_<). I want a lifelong partner ! I am submissive. Into women who are older than me.
I look for cuteness but cant say about innocence, I want her to be smart as much as me if not more. I value intellect a lot. She should not prioritize materials over people, that's not what I like. Unreasonable/illogical hatred towards someone or some group is a red flag!
6. What conflicts have you encountered recently with other people? Why did they happen? Which kinds seem to happen on a regular basis?
I recently ghosted some of my friends for months, I just want to escape from the already established connections for some time to understand myself in the most rested/vanilla/pure form. Some of them got offended, I mean, that is justified, I should have told them that I will ghost them before doing it. Recently, it was my birthday, and some of them wished after month sof no interaction, and I replied thanks, because I was actually quite happy that they messaged me and they were in offensive mode while I acted (not acted, I was authentic) like nothing happened. It confused them but they still love me, I know, they are not leaving me, I just know.
I would call myself introvert, some of my friends would call me ambivert. But I can live without no human interaction for days, my family is enough for the amount of human interaction needed; but yeah I understand the need to interact in social settings, I will resume it soon.
Spending too much time with friends bloats my morals, I start doing stuff I regret later when introspect. You can say I get easily influenced.
7. What are your weaknesses? What criticism do you often face from others? What do you dislike about yourself?
I think my weaknesses are lazyness, indecisiveness, procastination, task-delaying, unmotivated, social-anxiety, fragile ego, cowardice. My relatives would complain that I do not interact with them, (I don't want to). My friends and family would say I spend too much time alone/at home, don't fullfil my responsibilities, do not help them when I have to get out of my comfort zone in order to do so.
Is there anything to like about myself?
8. In what areas of life can you manage well on your own? In what areas of your life would you like help?
I would appreciate if someone can motivate me / give me a purpose. I am not good at maintaining my health I believe, so I want help ig. I want positivity !
9. What goals, aspirations, or plans do you have for the future? How did you come to have them?
Not very specific, just want a job that is highly engaging (naturally) and high paying. Will think about family goals and etc after that. And yeah also want a romatic partnet, but I am not worthy yet. Will work on my face and body soon (hopefully).
10. If you had enough money to live comfortably for the rest of your life without working, what would you do with your time?
Try to learn everything that interests me, and try to unify and relate concepts. Travel. Write. Spread my understandings through online mediums.
11. What traits do you find endearing that others might dislike? What traits are considered positive/neutral by others but tend to annoy you?
I find myself talking with unprivileged/disabled/alienated people every now and then, they are easy to connect with, I subconconciously feel they need love, so maybe I am trying to make them feel loved. Toxic Masculinity annoys me however if I wanna be more masculine, maybe it would make others acknowledge me, and my self-esteem will boost.
12. How do you behave around strangers?
If I am the initiator and know I am not going to meet him/her again, I act cold / to the point / direct, if the stranger replies in cold manner, it gets justified, if relpy is with warmth I feel bad to acting in such way.
If I am the respondant, I judge him/her with his/her tone of voice, I act accordingly cold / warm then.
13. How do you react to conflict? What do you do if somebody insults or attacks you?
I immediately get away from him/her and think about what just happened, I either decide to not talk with the person again (which I may forget soon) or be very direct with the person from next time. When at home, I write about what I felt in my diary, to let it off my shoulders and in extreme situations when overthinking occurs, its buildup might result in crying out of shame?.
14. What is your biggest accomplishment?
I made my mother happy with my academic performance for 10+ years straight.
15. What is something you regret?
I wasted some years of my life doing nothing academically.
16. Who do you admire, and why?
My last physics teacher, such a charming man, man with zero haters, he donated for charity, taught poor students for free, spoke very sweetly, very positive, shared his deep emotional trouble phases of life, appreciated me once ( he said I had "skills" ).
17. What are your religious or spiritual beliefs and why do you hold them?
umm its changing, constantly improving. I used to follow the religion of my parents from young age, but during last 5-6 years I lost my belief in god, some months ago I realized it was causing me to be more hopeless, so I made my custom religion for personal usage, my morals are my religion, and my morals are constantly improving.
18. Would you ever be interested in starting a business? Why or why not? What role would you play in it? What kind of business would it be?
I was interested in buisness in childhood, but all I now see is capitalism, and how all consumers and employees both are being exploited for max profit. The competition in the market turns me off from business.
19. What is or was your favorite school subject and why?
English and computer science, idk why.
20. How do you approach responsibility? What do you tend to expect of others?
I am very bad at responsibilities. I expect some stuff from others, and when not fulfilled, I may complain, and then think if I even deserve to make someone accountable ?
21. Where did you go on your most recent vacation? What did you do there? How did you like it and why?
its an island with empty beaches, I love empty beaches with clear seawater; floating on it. I like that place so much I went twice, also planning for third time.
22. What were you like as a kid? How have you changed since you were a child?
I was crybaby. I was naughty. I was playful. I was unaware of my surronding. I am neither of them now. I might be unaware of surrounding still.
23. What was your high school experience like?
I wanted recognition, didn't get; resulted in very plain simple bland high school experience.
24. Talk about a significant event from your life.
Knowing about sex at age 10; changed everything.
25. Do you like kids? Why or why not?
Not the privileged one, I am subconciously jealous of them for not having such a comfortable childhood. Bombing children with philosophical questions is fun.
I just want to add that I don't feel comfortable expressing my emotions in public, however when in private I do, however it could be related to gender role, "boys don't cry" -_- . Also I am 90% sure that I am process oriented (Renin dichotomy). I daydream ideal conversations almost everyday.
My result of a Typing Test : https://files.catbox.moe/8m7adl.pdf
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