Originally Posted by
Adam Strange
Because I'm not in a relationship right now, I've been thinking a lot about relationships and why they go wrong or right.
In my case, the outcome seems to be determined by whether or not the participants in the relationship can effectively make the other person their priority or not.
In the case of my ex-wife, I definitely made her my priority, but I wasn't very effective at giving her (my supervisor) what she wanted, so she eventually left and I divorced her.
In the case of the LSIs I've dated, the sex (Ni/Se-Se/Ni) was great, but I didn't see a path forward, long term, in our public social interactions (Te/Fi - Ti/Fe). They were great today, but not in the running as permanent partners. I'd say that made both partners see the other as not their number-one priority.
In the case of the ESIs I've dated, the sex was again great, but they either lived too far away, or they were Dismissive-Avoidant and weren't there for me. Their Dismissive-Avoidance meant that I was actually the opposite of a priority, in the sense that, the more they liked me, the more vulnerable they felt to eventually being let down (this was exactly what their caregivers did, and is therefore the way they think that the world works), and so they distanced themselves in the relationship to the point where I quit trying, thereby validating their self-fulfilling fears.
Dismissive-Avoidance is a shit thing to get from your inconstant caregivers, and it basically makes a person be unsupportive to their partners. Everyone needs love, but they don't need to be vulnerable to someone who doesn't love them, and when you go too far down that path of unloving caregivers, it is really hard to believe that someone COULD love you, and then change your expectations to a new reality.
I ain't asking for much. I just want a Dual (who is capable of effectively making me their priority, because I'd make them mine) who is healthy (and wants to make me a priority, because I want to make them mine.)
In the words of my ESI buddy, "Dating is hard. It's really hard."