I'm gay.
I'm gay.
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It might be the ILI syndrome.
Hi Fay, I know this is old but I started looking at this thread where i left off pages back. I was going to ask just where, when you first mentioned it was "near NY", but here you tell us Tarrytown [that is the spelling]. My husband grew up quite near there, and his best friend from childhood is a lawyer there now. When they were school age they both had working parents, but in those days kids could run free after school while their parents were at work; it was safe. And I take the bridge over the Hudson in Tarrytown often when traveling; I take it to avoid my GPS's directive to take me into New York City and over the terribly congested George Washington Bridge, instead. Anyway, it's a very beautiful area and it would have been quite a beautiful bucolic country town, nicely situated 25 miles from Manhattan, when your great-great-great-grandparents were there [I am calculating that is the right amount of greats to add to your grandparents if they arrived there in 1900]. It is an area made particularly famous by Washington Irving. My husband lived just off Sleepy Hollow Rd. Its still beautiful there. I wonder if you have old correspondence with a Tarrytown address? Because if so it would be interesting for you to Google and see it. I have addresses from my parents' old correspondence, and it has been interesting to see where they lived, by googling the addresses.
Your great-great-great-grandparents probably arrived in Tarrytown just about the very time my great-great-great-grandfather and his family emigrated to Toronto from London! His brother was a well known artist/sculptor. I have two beautiful drawings of his (he was not an artist by profession, but they are beautiful). This is his artist brother:
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"A man with a definite belief always appears bizarre, because he does not change with the world; he has climbed into a fixed star, and the earth whizzes below him like a zoetrope."
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"Having a clear faith, based on the creed of the Church, is often labeled today as fundamentalism... Whereas relativism, which is letting oneself be tossed and swept along
by every wind of teaching, looks like the only
attitude acceptable to today's standards." - Pope Benedict the XVI, "The Dictatorship of Relativism"
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I lived in a foreign country as a teen, my mothers country. It's a shithole, hated it and will never return.
I'm entirely self taught in all subjects that I know as I had to drop out of elementary school due to rough childhood and my parents didn't help me with learning at all. I initially started my self learning by devouring a 1997 Oxford Encyclopedia religiously, as it was my only entertainment. Got high school equivalency as an adult and my knowledge of all subjects minus math surpass most people I meet, including college grads. My math is raw ass however and I forget how to do it often which requires me to brush up on it very frequently to retain it.
I met Ryan Reynolds when I worked at Starbucks a long time ago. He ordered a black coffee, give a tip, and left.
I was a hair away from becoming an LDS missionary, in the middle of the process and everything, but bailed last second to move across the country to work for Scientology instead as at that point my faith was nonexistent and was only still LDS due to wanting to maintain my friendships. I strongly miss the social life of the LDS church, nothing compares.
when i was a small child i would collect worms in the backyard after every rain, but my dad forbid me from doing it after he saw that i kept them as pets and kissed them.
i had a speech impediment that caused me to drop the first letter from every word, ie. "mouse" would be "ouse" and for that reason i went to special ed learning as a toddler where i was prompted to look at words and pictures and pronounce them. and in that way i learned to read when i was 3. in a kind of hardcore way because the doctor walked in to see a 3 year old reading something he had laying out about medicine he referred my parents to an iq test. it makes me wonder about hyperlexia after hearing that another indicator is weirdly early memories and i always KNEW that my memory of being 6 months old in my mother's arms was real.
less flattering neuro quirks i possess are maladaptive daydreaming (just a tiny bit now. but like talking to myself in public when i was a teenager)
and wolfbiting/finger skin gnawing (i stopped after i was in coma. started up again on purpose because i was yearning so badly to be my 'old self' again hehe. it's a much milder habit now, though.)
i've only seen the gulf of mexico and no other portion of the ocean. i swam in it and my primary takeaway was the ridiculousness of swimming in water so salty.
i keep editing this post and i realized i'm not enjoying myself anymore but i'd like to say more, so maybe i'll make another one.
Oh yeah! It's been one wild adventure. I've done it all working for them. Been a receptionist, a moving truck guy, a bookseller, demolition guy (stripped a house apart with just a freaking hammer once), cleaner, cleaning manager, central file manager, a security guard, the AV guy, and more that I can't remember off the top of my head. I'll be an executive in Europe next year, after I finish 6 or so months of hardcore daily training in Clearwater first, which will be a scary experience but one I look forward to. I'll be a director overseeing all matters regarding ethics, statistics, rudiments, and most of all inspections for the entire country.
All I can say is if you want a significantly higher degree of responsibility than you'd realistically find in any job in the real world, wog world as we say, you'd love working here. If you hate ever increasing responsibilities and just wanna keep your head down, not the job for you.
Yeah I've found the LDS to be the opposite of the Catholic church where the theology is bad but the community is amazing whereas my experience in Catholicism is worst community of all churches (except Eastern Orthodox, way too ethnically insulated) but best theology, really love how philosophical and scholarly it all is.
I could kill a man with my masculine and pronounced forehead and cheekbones.
Clearwater, eh? Yeah, I live one city over from there.
I was at the beach at Sand Key Park's beach a week ago. I do shopping in the area, occasionally. I just know Clearwater is packed more than usual because of Spring Break.
Yeah, I've lived in the area most of my life and have been all over Pinellas. I don't go out as much because of COVID. I used to go to the kava bars in the area, but again, because of COVID, I'd rather stay home until things get better with the pandemic.
I have ridiculously intense reflexes. One day, a sleeve hit my knee and my leg kicked so hard I almost fell of my chair.
I'm in two projects (bands). The way I joined the second one was funny, I saw them looking for a "crazy" vocalist and I told them to meet up, they were like "ok, we're at the bar." I went to the shithole they were at and they had me sing for them and we bonded fast. They were like "You're exactly what we were looking for. You sing real well, different styles, AND you're completely insane."
Some girl told me i'm a weird combination of "really sweet" and "really violent."
"A man with a definite belief always appears bizarre, because he does not change with the world; he has climbed into a fixed star, and the earth whizzes below him like a zoetrope."
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"Having a clear faith, based on the creed of the Church, is often labeled today as fundamentalism... Whereas relativism, which is letting oneself be tossed and swept along
by every wind of teaching, looks like the only
attitude acceptable to today's standards." - Pope Benedict the XVI, "The Dictatorship of Relativism"
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I used to love looking at dead bodies as a child. So much that I wanted to be a mortician or forensic pathologist. Even now, I like to watch movies where people get tortured to death.
I'm the Chosen One in Pokemon the Movie 2000 The Power of One (Ash) and Star Wars Episode I Phantom Menace (little Kidd Anakin, not older Anakin as much)!!
ORRE COLOSSEUM JUST GOT STARTED, AND KOBE IS REIGNING AS KING!!
It's Henry vs Zidane, France vs Spain in the 2024 Olympic soccer final, Egypt vs Japan, Yugioh vs Pokemon, Poimandres vs Zarathustra, Giordano Bruno vs Friedrich Nietzsche, haystack picnic robed in silver rods to treasures of lore and sacred spark to unite and forge dancing stars and futures refracting crystal moonlight lures of hanger bay crunching fabrics webbing steel and blizzards juice stringing code red trains of yonder fluid ribbons trophy waterfall cake blueprints frenzy retracting haunted capital terra horns of leading edge canopy blossoms rendezvous shuffling Articuno!!
RaptorWizard Sci-Fi Empire Lugia Bunny ~ Ultimate Aeon Willpower: Wes Net (the16types.info)
As a non-colorblind person, I think most people would not consider red to be a particularly unexciting color. It can be dull as it approaches the color of purple, but IIRC studies have shown that seeing it helps provoke sexual thoughts -- maybe other kinds of excitement too; I'm not sure, but it . And as for green, I think even what most people would consider dark green is fairly vibrant; a "dull" green I think would be described as green diluted with brown, rather than a type of greenness itself. When I think of the word "lurid," the image that comes to mind is of a scene filtered through a harsh, surreal yellowish-green light.
Sometimes you don't have motivation because you lack purpose.
Sometimes you don't have purpose, because you lack self-knowledge
Sometimes you don't have self-knowledge because you lack love
Sometimes you don't have love because you lack self-love
Sometimes you don't have self-love because you lack guess what? Ask Gulenko!!
Back then as a child, somebody died and there'd be a lot of people surrounding them. So naturally, I was curious. The whole process of someone dying was just fascinating. Seeing a body lifeless was fascinating since it was kind of rare. Most of the bodies around me had life, and so the ones without it seemed different.
I don't think I'd like being around a dead body now (well more so if the death was violent). I've developed certain fears that I didn't have as a child.
In archaic Russian language "red" and "beautiful" were also used as synonyms.
"красна девица" ("red girl") - beautiful or decent girl
"красный угол" ("red corner") - best cared and decent place in a house, where were kept religious symbols
"Red Square" near Cremlin should be named with the meaning as beautiful or important square
Also "багряный" is close to red or same color. "Багрянородный" ("redborn") - a term used for Eastern Roman Emperor descendants.
Red is associated with a blood and ripe fruits, - the color of alive and healthy body, good meal, fire important for a life. Mainly positive.
Si edition:
I have some difficulty swallowing, I need to drink some water with many dry foods that others seem to eat easily without any drink. I was also afraid of swallowing pills as a child, my mother had to crush even tiny ones, got courage to end this habit later but sometimes they get stuck somewhere in my throat.
As a child I had a habit of picking between my teeth, sometimes to blood, it felt itchy in a good way and was quite addicting, I only stopped because I worried I may damage something.
Sometimes strong stress causes interesting physical sensations, I remember that I felt like something was burning inside my head when I've done something bad in elementary school, some time ago some very important event made my hands go numb, later it repeated in some less stressing situations, like that first occurrence activated this reaction for some time.
Since maybe 3 years I have this thing that I recall some smells out of nowhere, like a deja vu but only about smell.
I can't stand any bitter food. Grapefruits, coffee etc., just
Sometimes when I'm sleepy or bored I read with only one eye, the non-dominant one is just unfocused and ignored, feels like less effort than the usual way.
My only health problems are myopia, headache around once a month, some dull pain above my ankle and pain I think in my esophagus that radiates to the back and jaw with similar frequency, also some weird pulsating under my skin in random places. It's been happening for years and doesn't get worse so rather nothing to worry about.
Sometimes touching some parts of my body gives me some weird stingy sensation in my throat, happens rarely and randomly without reason.
Once when I was a child I was eating dinner and I felt my elbow got unusually wet, I looked at it and saw a lot of blood, it was a bit shocking as I have no idea how it happened, I didn't feel any pain.
My mind is very creative when I'm falling asleep, I often get some great ideas then but I want to sleep and don't feel like getting up to write them up, so much potential gets wasted
When I'm alone and I think about something exciting I'm running and jumping a lot, it feels natural to express emotions this way.
When I have to wake up early I always skip breakfast, I just don't feel hungry in the morning, sometimes even nauseous if I slept too short. It doesn't affect my performance in any way, in fact I usually feel more hungry and tired later in the day if I ate breakfast, maybe I'm genetically made for fasting or something.
MOTTO: NEVER TRUST IN REALITY
Winning is for losers
Sincerely yours,
idiosyncratic type
Life is a joke but do you have a life?
Joinif you dare https://matrix.to/#/#The16Types:matrix.org
I chose My Youtube username as RaptorWizard (later adding the Ultimate Aeon of Will as a 2nd at the same time name) in 2011 8 years before the Raptors won the NBA title, but 6 years after the 81 point Kobe Raptors game in 2006.
So I'm kind of, half authentic in the destiny credential, but hey, nobody else after those things used RaptorWizard, so I am the prodigy!!*
ORRE COLOSSEUM JUST GOT STARTED, AND KOBE IS REIGNING AS KING!!
It's Henry vs Zidane, France vs Spain in the 2024 Olympic soccer final, Egypt vs Japan, Yugioh vs Pokemon, Poimandres vs Zarathustra, Giordano Bruno vs Friedrich Nietzsche, haystack picnic robed in silver rods to treasures of lore and sacred spark to unite and forge dancing stars and futures refracting crystal moonlight lures of hanger bay crunching fabrics webbing steel and blizzards juice stringing code red trains of yonder fluid ribbons trophy waterfall cake blueprints frenzy retracting haunted capital terra horns of leading edge canopy blossoms rendezvous shuffling Articuno!!
RaptorWizard Sci-Fi Empire Lugia Bunny ~ Ultimate Aeon Willpower: Wes Net (the16types.info)
One of reasons I was without a pair since 22 to 29 yo age is my vow to have no other woman until 30 years.
I tried to explain my emotional state to the one I had feelings to.
As I've not seen serious interest to me, which thought should be obligate to appear soon when your "real love" pair is met, I stoped communications with her. Despite I had significant feeling for next several years.
It took 17 years from the moment I've got significant feeling to one woman to the time when I got significant feeling to other woman.
My Ni views the world as like kind of a puzzle, sometimes a maze and even could be an infuriating one. It doesn't help that I literally have to learn social skills by myself rather than like... naturally imitate them from adults growing up. So yeah. As for my ennea 1 side I kind of discriminate evil and even the striving for power too, but I know for a fact that I'm not perfect myself, that I have a lot of selfish impulses and even weaknesses, that its impossible for me to be perfect because I'm human. Humanity can be transcended only through acceptance... discrimination, God knows how many awful things came from that throughout history.
I humbly request more @Sol facts.
I'm common, boring and mediocre for very most of people who know me. I suspect, such is with the majority as people are similar indeed, and partly due to surface knowledge about them.
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Recently I had a wish to contact with a human with who I talked more than 20 yeas ago. He lives in USA now, has married there on a woman from RF/USSR, has a kid. It took 20 min to find him in Internet and then to interact a little. I've transfered him a video and a photo related to times when we had communications. Internet is amazing technology, in some sense.
Apparently higher ability to match a musical pitch according to 23andme which makes sense to me. I still don’t think I’m that good at singing though.
Over a decade ago, I got psychosis/mental illness due to a serious head injury suffered during a car accident. I recovered a short time later (albeit with some memory loss), but I'll never forget what it was like to have intense hallucinations.
Among other things, I started seeing halos around people's heads. And, by "seeing halos", I mean that their heads were physically superimposed on the halos found in Byzantine iconography.
That experience gave me a fascinating insight into just how complicated and creative the human mind can be. I probably looked like a normal person to anyone not in the know; when I talk to people now, I never assume that what's on the surface is what they're actually thinking.
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I'm a dude !
Lack is the Muse of all Poets
I was a "breached" baby, born not breathing, with my mother's umbilical chord wrapped around my neck. I often think about the Enneagram/Attachment style theory that posits enneagram 8's attachment is one built around rejection of the maternal, "nurturing" figure and, subsequently, being cared for/nurtured overall--hell, I see why. lol By the time I emerged from the womb, I had already been fucked over. Poor bastard never stood a chance.
My great grandparents came to the US from the Russian Empire in 1913 and only intended to stay here temporarily, but WW1 broke out and forced them to stay.
One time, I was bitten by something while in the backyard. Some time later, within the same day, I started having an allergic reaction to it - while I was in the shower, I had this strange sensation of taking in air but lungs not inflating. I felt weak like I was going to pass out. I still don’t remember if I did, momentarily. I somehow dressed myself and got out - by the time the paramedics arrived I was fine.
to this day I don’t know what that was
An insect sting allergy can cause:
- A large area of swelling (edema) at the sting site
- Itching or hives all over the body
- Cough, chest tightness, wheezing or shortness of breath
- Anaphylaxis
interesting
I had the swelling too but it wasn’t that bad
The most interesting facts about myself are too shocking to be revealed. The forum would never recover, lol.