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Economics studies. I chose this path almost improvising. I knew it was in great demand where I live, and above all there is the possibility of making a career. The idea of being a doctor like my father did not thrill me, both because I don't like having to deal with "sad" contexts (for sensitivity), and because I prefer the idea of starting from the bottom and improving. I don't really like what I study (being an aseptic subject), and I was much more suited to psychological, philosophical, and even chemistry subjects. But I chose this for the money.What do you study or do for a living? How did you come to do that? What do you like or dislike about it?
I like playing the piano and singing, and when I do I imagine I'm on stage. I love the energy aroused by music, both sad and joyful, both ascetic and jovial. I also write a lot, mostly myths. I have frequent ideas for mythologies and in recent years I have perfected them. I also write story plots (often fantasy worlds that use those myths), but I don't feel like writing, because I easily lose touch with the idea I generate. There are few stories that I recover year after year. I am unable to be constant because my energy changes color and is always directed elsewhere: some months I am closed in on myself and I write, other months I reject what I write (considering it "stupid") and I live more in the real world. I feel unable to build a stable connection between these two worlds, which I always live separately.What else do you do on a daily basis? What are your interests and hobbies? Why do you do them?
Since I was a child, I have been analyzing people's behavior patterns. Once I grew up I discovered that MBTI and Socionics use methods similar to the ones I already used, so I started studying them. I often enjoy guessing what made people be the way they are, and people think I'm informed. Instead I just worked with intuition.
I tend to look for a kind of objective moral code and implement it towards everyone. I can't side with a loved one if I think he's wrong. I tend to want to confront loved ones rather than make them live in their illusions. I want them to be able to distinguish objectivity from their subjectivity (as far as possible). I try to understand everyone's motives, but by virtue of that I tend to try to make them open their eyes. My being fair has always brought me problems, because I have never taken sides to defend the wrong reasons of friends. Throughout my life, I entered groups that tended to create the illusion among themselves that they were right, considering the outsiders as enemies. For me, all this is unthinkable, because one flees from truth and self-criticism, as well as from the evolution of oneself.What are your values, and why?
The people I get along best with are those who avoid creating bonds that trap them in a static way of being and thinking. I don't like it when people depend on me and sadly it happens often. When that happens, I try to force them to change with advice and, if I can't, through my absence. I have often gone too far in trying to help others change, and perhaps it was not my duty. I spent a lot of energy and health doing it. I hate wasted potential in general. People after many years tend to thank me for making them grow. My advice is often too "idealistic" or practical, I speak of dignity and values that others are instead ready to sacrifice. I also explain some psychological tricks my friends might use to achieve goals but choose not to use them, instead showing themselves weak to others and then being crushed.Describe your relationships with family and friends. What do you like and dislike about them?
Regarding my family, I had to participate in important family decisions from an early age because my father (I believe SLI) is totally impractical towards people and is unable to oppose other relatives.
Open-minded people who do not emanate negativity. Someone who can also feel free from toxic bonds. However, there are exceptions. My best friend is not particularly strong, but she is right with others. I like to give her advice and even if she doesn't follow them, her sweetness doesn't allow me to think badly of her. Indeed, I prefer a person who does not listen to my advice rather than a person who implements them without making them his own (understanding them and making them part of his being). She is EII, I think. I've also another EII friend with whom I had fights for years, but in the end we managed to maintain a strong friendship, despite some core differences. Regarding romantic relationships, I have no idea at all. I tend to avoid people who seem too superficial to me. I like kind and lively people (and ESE very much) but I always clash with them. The girls with whom I found myself better "psychologically" speaking are INTp and INFp, but what destroyed our relationship was their excessive seclusion and closure. I still have not a lot of experience in the field to understand what I like in a woman. I tend to reject them all.What do you look for in friends? In romantic relationships?
The most recent was with an ESE. I can't stand the fact that she is not on time even though he lives 5 minutes from where we meet, while I need to drive 1 hour and still I arrive on time. I care about respect so I looked for a confrontation, but this person was refractory. Our relationship has cracked. She hates the fact that I like to go from group to group, and even more the fact that if I'm bored I let them know. When we go out they spend the day taking pictures and I find it a waste of time. I prefer to talk, they prefer to have pics to share for 1-2 weeks on instagram. I am very sorry for how it went but there is an atmosphere of heaviness that is no longer bearable.What conflicts have you encountered recently with other people? Why did they happen? Which kinds seem to happen on a regular basis?
When I feel bad, I am very argumentative and I realize that I exaggerate. If someone calms the tension by joking, I retrace my steps. Paradoxically, I have a male ESE friend who actually helps me this way. It's maybe my best (male) friend.
People compliment me on my values, but at the same time it doesn't make them treat me well. I keep my promises no matter what discussions I have with people. Many perceive this as a manipulation or way to feel superior, but in reality it is just important for me to keep my word. I maintain a respect that goes beyond individual quarrels, but others are less likely to do so. Another thing I get compliments on is open-mindedness. I can be polite and nice to strangers. It has often happened that strangers told me about their life (happened a lot on the train home. often they were old women or men), and sometime people just met say that I am the only impartial person who can give good advice. I don't know what I like of me.What are your strengths? What do people like about you? What do you like about yourself?
I have a lot of scruples. I would like to know if I made the right choice or not. I want the people I discuss with to know my whole point of view well explained, but often no one cares. The criticism I receive is that I am too moved by the defense of my dignity and respect, and my desire to confront myself when someone has something to say about me. They hate my being honest.What are your weaknesses? What criticism do you often face from others? What do you dislike about yourself?
The only thing I don't like about myself is perhaps my lack of consistency in studying, and my inability to try to have "non-serious" experiences with girls (which I would have needed). However, I don't look back and accept it.
I am good when there is the possibility of expressing oneself without closure and superficiality. My goal is to work in business contexts and prove my worth. I would like to have a team.In what areas of life can you manage well on your own? In what areas of your life would you like help?
I don't like spending empty days with others (just drinking, messing around etc.). I like to talk, talk about experices, ideas, or make more interesting things happen. It happens that when I'm in dead contexts where people do empty things (as I said, drinking etc.), I tend to exert pressure, first of all showing myself hyper introverted and closed, and then honestly showing my disinterest.What things do you dislike doing? What things do you enjoy more than others?
It is very important for me to show myself well. My clothes must go well with each other. I often take inspiration from what I see (even from video games), and reproduce them in a "sober" way. It rarely happens that I wear clothes that are a little eccentric, at other times just very elegant. It happened that on birthdays I was the most elegant. I also dress sporty, I love jeans and so on, but in any case I never show myself "messy".How do you dress or manage your appearance?
I think the best feeling of my life was being engaged (with an ILI) when I was 17. I have never felt that feeling again. Love is important to me but I am so selective that I have hardly ever experienced it. I am critical when I observe the relationships of others, because I only observe toxic dynamics of power. I believe in unconditional love.In what situations or times in your life did you feel most fulfilled, and why?
A very important question. Since I was a child I have always tried to arrive (with the thought) to a "natural" religion, free from the influences of the traditions of the various peoples. This allowed me to discover the archetypal concepts underlying every religion. As mentioned, this allows me to create mythologies. I don't believe in God in a religious way. I have written a sort of personal "bible" that I think can be used to understand these concepts without substrates, in a very philosophical way.What are your spiritual or religious beliefs and why do you hold them?
I don't show it, but I need attention, especially from the girls. When I can I try to enter into discussions by proposing points of view, or to make tough looks or poses (which are not always successful). I have some kind of awareness of the effect that certain expressions might have on others. In boring contexts, as already mentioned, I apply pressure by showing myself detached.How do you feel about attention? Do you seek it out?
It depends. Speaking about goals, I think if somethings goes not as I expected, I can change goal. I think the most important thing is to gain experience (talking about work). New goals will come over time, you just need to discover them. I've never had specific goals and I've often improvised. The only persistent desire is to want to have a job where you can earn a lot.What do you do if you're not getting what you want? What approach do you use?
Speaking of partners, it is difficult for me not to get what I want because I often just want something that is already in line with my being. It's hard for me to want a partner who doesn't already like me. I have to have some degree of certainty. In the past I have been rejected by girls who didn't like me and I almost took it well and kept a friendship. I tend to take everything philosophically and without rancor. Of course, it always takes some time to calm down but I know that over time everything will no longer matter. I've never been rejected by girls who were in a deep psychological connection with me (IEI/ILI), but unfortunately they were toxic relationships and I had to close with them.
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