Member Questionnaire 1 (Raven Song)
What is beauty? What is love? Beauty and love are the ultimate synchronous expressions and receptions of one another cooccuring (combined as necessary opposing forces to their respective shadows) within the perception of both the collective and the individual experience - somewhere along the spectrum of dark and light where an impactful vibration is induced into perceptive reality, thus simultaneously emitting reactive vibrations required to continue the inevitable cycle of beauty/ugliness, light/dark, love/hate, etc.
What are your most important values? Expression, love, desire, intensity, passion, authenticity, transcendence, intellect, progression.
Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place? The realm of spirituality lies first within the collective unconscious of dreams - which then emits it's symbols into the nature of reality. When events, symbols, and images from the subconscious align in reality, it creates a mystical effect on the subject which heightens their consciousness and taps into the coexistence of the psychic, spiritual, and physical realms - thus strengthening one's dimensional perspective. Awareness of the recurring themes of one's spirit reflects into the vastness of the collective. When you become one with and aware of the myths you emanate, they no longer control you. You can instead harness their various powers within each of these realms and transcend from ancient generational curses.
Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you? Like it or not, war is necessary in humanity's cyclical nature. Birth, death, rebirth. Not just in the physical or collective realms, but also within the journey of every living thing. You're either aware or unaware of this process, but it's inevitable. If you at least recognize this process, you can then forecast the direction in which it's headed based on the past destruction and divert the course to a more desirable outcome. Power is awareness of subtext which will lead to certain events - allowing you to take the reigns.
What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why? Mysticism, philosophy, psychology, history, trends, nature. I think the reasoning is apparent in my other answers.
Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body? No, though I should be because I'm probably dying due to the lack of bodily awareness. The topic irritates me and I zone out.
What do you think of daily chores? A nuisance. Same as above.
Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome. I'm interested in reading the philosophies/theories of Frederich Nietzsche and Carl Jung. I recently finished Thus Spoke Zarathustra by Nietzsche and I'm currently reading Man and His Symbols by Jung. I also enjoy the works of Franz Kafka, Shakespeare, Stephen King, and HP Lovecraft. I plan to read Metamorphoses soon! As for film, I am a huge fan of the Silent and Pre Code Eras. I love horror, fantasy, scifi, and psychological thrillers. I love media that invokes epiphanies and mystical experiences. I recently finished the Netflix series The OA and Sense8 which both deal with themes of consciousness, dimensional realms, and unity.
What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why? Everything and anything. I cry and smile very easily. I'm highly sensitive and emotional to the atmosphere. I took my daughter to a live wrestling event and the pyrotechnics, music, and emotion of the crowd moved me to tears.
Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging? I feel somewhat alien unless I am in my head. I don't really feel that I belong in many places in the outside world because I feel misunderstood. I have to pretend to be someone I'm not and lose my identity (which is everything to me). Idenity very essence of everything. I try to minimize my time with others and only to those I feel I can maximize my time with. Those who understand me. My tribe. My time is very valuable to me. I think my ultimate happy place is within my dreamscapes. In reality, secluded places like forests are optimal for my thoughts to flow in synchronicity from one to the other.
What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself? Inability to follow logical reasoning, due to my head in the clouds. I can't function well as a responsible adult. Money management, health, news, cooking... these things don't register on my radar whatsoever. It's as if they I'm living in another place and time where these necessities aren't so necessary. I think I dislike my lack of motivation to complete my big goals because I'm so indulged in my fantasy world.
What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself? My ability to see beyond the veil. To get to the heart of the issue and foresee future implications. I like that I am unique and weird. That I invoke interesting feelings in people.
In what areas of your life would you like help? Motivation.
Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it. I suppose, but I pay attention to the lead up of events and can foresee how and when I will need to get out of such ruts.
What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with? I HATE BOSSY MOTHERFU....
I mean, overbearing people that tell me how to live my life properly in the conventions of society. I loathe convention and practicality and coziness.
I get along with people who go against the grain and also protect me.
How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner? I am an intense lover. I want to become one with my partner. I literally want them to ingest me. I need drama, intensity, proclamation!
If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why? That they became the pure essence of what it was that they wanted to become. I'd allow them the freedom to discover who they are and administer guidance along the way.
A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction? Inwardly annoyed, mostly. Trying to portray a neutral reaction outwardly, but most likely not fully succeeding at it.
Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one. I dislike societal convention. I am mostly attracted to things that defy convention; therefore, I feel alienated from most of society. I stand on the outskirts watching in. I view society as a malleable dimension of mostly sheep that I can impart ideas on. I am have been working on an artistic/philosophical venture which incorporates an algorithm that I would like to impart on society in the hopes of creating a meaningful change... Stay tuned!
How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them? I'm pretty picky about who I befriend. I pick up on nuances about certain people over time which enable me to see how the relationship will pan out for both parties. I like to be around strong people who can propell me and whom I can guide and propell in return.
How do you behave around strangers? I kind of ignore strangers. I try to hide and remain invisible to the public, but I smile if they notice me. It's kind of a contradiction; though, because I dress in such a way that would be considered expressive and may call for attention.