Not sure what to write about myself, but I wrote this in my personal blog a few months back ... Just reading this, what type do I sound like?

Now, I don't believe in that survival of the fittest bullshit; it is an excuse and a justification to runover others who might actually be better off than you. There have been many ways that society has supported people and many ways by which society has screwed people. For example, the act of marriage ... that is an aspect of society that has been maintained for the benefit of people; it is an assertive method to legally back and establish a home for children and a vehicle for self-support. On the other hand, there are many ways by which society lies to you and attempts to control you through a means of subjugation.

Credit cards, most interest loans, media, and negitive prescription eyeglasses are a part of that lie. They attempt to weaken your suspecibilty to challenge the fact that they intend to blind you, take what you own, and to enslave you for another's benefit. Frankly, I have no repect for these institutions. However, if you ever get involved by getting into debt, listening to modern media, or allow yourself to become reliant upon a false means of support you are going to have to work your butt off to get back ahead. That is if you are awake enough.

Heck, look how many people eat at McDonald ... bunch of cattle ... I bet they don't even realize the moment they step in they have lost total control of themselves. Apparently, people fail to realize that the fact that there are 100s of items on the menu does not mean that they have the right to choose, meerly this is the illusion of choice. It doesn't matter what you buy, it will translate into money and go into some collective bank account somewhere. In the mean time, people are screwing up their health eating sugar laden and intentionally addictive foods ment to bring you back day by day and they are taught to like that every step of the way. It really isn't any different when you take many of these other money traps such as Walmart into consideration; they all use a similar scheme to make money, some of them are just better at doing it than others.

Credit cards, guess what ... you don't need them; nobody needs them. People are brainwashed into thinking they need something called a credit rating by a means of societal reinforcement that is totally imaginary. My advice is to just not buy anything you don't have the total cash for, and if that means saving up for years then do so; it is really the only way to get rich if that is in your interest/ Couple that with building credit by paying back exactly what you owe right when you buy something. That way, you are using the credit card company to your advantage. You might want to keep track of what you buym though. Credit card compnaies do not like this and they will sometimes make up excuses to illegially cancel your credit card. Be persistent if this ever happens to you and don't let them get away with lying, they want to cheat you.

Eyeglasses go by a similar line; the honest truth is that most optomotrist are living a silent lie of which that they are not often made aware. If you have a child that has blurry vision, do not take them to get negitive lens eyeglasses; take them to a specialist that knows eye relaxation techniques and give them a plus lens prescription. Nearsightedness is actually partially caused by wearing negitive glasses because of several reasons: one, you are subjugating your eyes to a tool: two, they support the strain that is causing blurry vision: three, they make vision worse, meaning that you must continue to get stronger leneses year by year until you are cursed to pay for new glassers and doctor check-ups for the rest of your natural life! This can be prevented at an early age using the techniques I already described, most people don't know that.
The criminal act in this is that there are many opromotrist who know the truth about eyeglasses and intentionally destroy a persons eyesight so they will always have their cash cow. If you don't think that is a sad fact of reality about the intentions of some people, you are living in denial.

Some people believe in karma, some people believe in a tao, some people believe in a fate or destiny, and there or others that can shape their own destiny. The only thing of these that I can say is true is that what you put in, you are going to get back. If you are active, friendly, and close to people, they will be receptive to you ... if you are cold, distant, and unfriendly people will be the same to you and maybe even act against you; they don't need a just cause, your attitude will be their attitude and their own mindly justification.

If you have ever heard the catch phrase "it isn't what you know, it is who you know" it is true. Life is built around trust and your own ability to relate to people and to look after others; they'll look after you as well.

Mostly, this is my fight not to be a total loser at life. I'm going to suceed at all cost; I have the will to do it and I have the means to do it. But, one ingredient is lacking in my life, and that is the basic necessity of friendship. That is the one thing that has eluded me in my life ... I am still learning ... hopefully it will not be long till I have fulfilled that as well I hope.
Man, I got some really weird neighbors ... to one side of me I got some rich african guy who is always playing this really loud tribal music, and the other side of me I got this other african guy who is always singing to either jamaican or spiritual music really loud, and sometimes I can even hear him and his music while he is in the shower.

While they both might be totally strange, I'd say they were pretty harmless ... except for that time one of them decided to throw a party and got these bongos out and started banging them at like 3 freaking am. Other than that one instance, I can tolerate them for the most part.

Great news also, I finally found myself a copy of one of my most favorite 80s flicks that you can't find almost anywhere anymore. Man, I wish I could go back to the 80s when things were still sort of simple and just stay there; except I am still stuck in the 90s , and it isn't the 90s anymore. I've tried to sort of moderninze a little, but it is like I am getting old and considering I am 24 that is real sad.

Even sadder is that almost all of the girls my age are starting to slightly lose their feminity, and all of the youger girls 18 - 20 are starting to look at me as more of a father figure or atleast older male; I mean, they are actually calling me sir and showing some respect. I'm not saying that is a bad thing, but it isn't something I am quite use to yet from that age group when they saw me as more of a friend only a year ago. And some of the girls I chilled with 4 or 5 years ago are starting to lose that attractive edge that they had now that they are older. Heck, this one girl I once hit it off with a few years back I saw just the other day with this really really passive guy, and she has dated some real jerks in her lifetime. Almost made me want to puke, possibly two or three times.

Although, it makes me glad I am one of those inbetween guys that really isn't either jerky or nice all the time, and I've known girls that have appreciated that in me. Like for example, this girl I was seeing for a while. I honestly think that was one of the initial reasons there was an attraction. That, and the fact that we had complementary personalities. Shame she had to graduate and get a job somewhere out of state before I could get myself set; I would have liked to taken that further possibly.

Well, atleast there is this new girl I have been seeing off and on with sky-high interest. I havn't totally figured her personality out yet, but we seem to have alot in common so far. I am taking this one slow, she's sort of shy and maybe has some superficialities. I'm not placing my expectations any higher than the obvious, makes me wary.