I
thought I was stuck between SLE and ESI, and then I double-checked; that second-to-last card was EII.
I found the SEE card, and the "manipulate", "lead", and "nature" stuff was enough to knock it out early on. I always saw what I did as removing obstacles, getting everything out of my way and everyone else's, and then the path of freedom just opens up right then and there without having to organize anyone or anything, or say anything at all. Taking action's great, but taking action's gonna run into its walls too. I can only pour so much coffee into my body, and eat so much meat and protein bars, and then I'm gonna start breaking down, not so much in physical ways right off the bat, but I won't know what I'm doing or what I'm doing it for, and I'll know something's missing, and it might be me going mad right then and there, but stuff won't feel right at all. I will find there's one of me and more than one not-me, I'll feel outnumbered by tens, hundreds, thousands, or more, and all that I'll remember is "fight like hell and don't die". As for looking up to people, that's far too linear; I'll have something to learn from every human being, something in common, but I'll be damned if I see myself as absolutely eclipsed by anyone, and I hope no one feels that way about me. "Powerful" is hard; any chain of command from far enough away will look more like a circle, and human strength can be outdone by a chimpanzee or a forklift.