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Braingel
So, I am going to be going to community college to attain a certificate in yoga. I’d like make it clear my family isn’t helping me with any of this; this is the county that is paying for it. I would actually prefer to distance from my family.
It has been something I never wanted (other than when in high school and I wanted the matriculation process) for myself, but I am actually going to be doing it. Community college made me to feel plain.. But how I am looking at the yogic means is that it actually is better to go to a community college to attain the training, because it is more rigorous than a mere yoga studio would have..
I would have done this sooner if I’d known you need not a high school diploma to enter into certificate programs. Thank god for of this.
I would honestly feel dull and plain if I went to community college for anything else, unless it was a select few program within it.
Apart of me doesn’t want go at all.. Apart of me is excited to see what I’ve missed out on.. Apart of me feels it would’ve been better to just focus on publishing my poetry and to not have go via any formal training, especially not at a typical place of learn.. But yoga is something that requires training, as it is a liability with the body, if you inaccurately do poses..
If I stick around the societal realm (I’ve many wishes to relinquish its cycle, several ways can take this form).. I will probably be trying to work in a rehab for people with addiction. They have wellness/yoga people in those to hire, and I’ve a personality suited to handle that type of job, and it is spiritually fulfilling.
I am absolutely not fit to work most jobs. And I wouldn’t be able to do this full time.. But it would be saving to amass for myself in starting. In the future, I will be with the one I am destined be with. This cannot happen for a bit of time.
The reason why working in a drug rehab would benefit myself and drug addicted people, is that it helps bring ideals I’ve into the world, it brings people closer into their soul. It is one less person, if I of them reach, who dwells in society blinded and their sickness abolishes (I’ve my own sickness to purge).
I would prefer 1-1.. I would prefer to not be a primary person dealing with another, I would rather come in waves and wash up, do I can go back into my own self-dwellings. I am not fit to be a constant light for others, I’d really, rather shine the light so others see, and then they know where it is. I don’t have keep of it doing, writing is much more attracrive to this reason (and also people would see my own intra feelings and value my depth and insight).
It would be very rewarding though, to shine a way for someone who has lost their own, into a way not only of higher health, but in spirit beyond society and Earth.
I do not want a job that is dull or plain not only, not only do I have deficits.. I cannot have a job that enables society, why could I, when all I do then is enable the orbit of Earth with cycles never bringing their own resolution..
Maybe some see, but cannot afford not out of their own survival which keeps them perpetually looped in a frustration to sicken.: But how can anyone want work in a world when the working is sickness itself and plagues further this, and less awareness and more neglect of relations and self-development and a connection for god and time for self, to even be able actualize and develop their intra-psychical means and become even one in their inherent clairvoyance..
The world keeps people unaware so they want enter those things to enable the circular ego as the mind aligns Earth, one tries lose this as they live.. But this is done at the expense in which makes everyone radiate self-abuse and a negligence and sometimes abuse to others.. It cannot go on.. There are ways managing with time that can allow some of that kind of work, yet being aware still and denoting a space to preserve one’s inner.
I firmly believe that if people denoted more time and space within, that clairvoyant happenings would regularly contact one’s conscious.. They would no longer be a non-scientific myth..
My purpose isn’t to enable society as is, but rather put a psyche into the realization of where it heads beyond their current conscious and into the flow to reach of this state. I am not going to work a normal job.. Some “normal” jobs, I am simply unable in due to my being neurodiverse and with certain health conditions.. But not only are normal jobs dull, they if you stay in them long enough and not as a mere stepping stone into a higher future enable immense soul stifling. And you do enable them even when you use them as to step, you give a hand into those means and use as a conduit to progress further these ways.. It is unfortunate most are unrealized of other ways.. Do you believe that working at a fast food restaurant, for instance, responsible for immense obesity and animal cruelty.. Helps humanity and its selves to progress?
This is a job I most certainly cannot do (cannot drive a car), and it is a necessary job, but what about driving for companies— delivery, garbage, that pollute the environment and decrease the longevity of earthly existence, leaving less room for souls to evolve and not crystallize as they are..
What about teaching for schools that overwork children and impede the development of body and mind with early waking (in countries where this goes) and stressing to a max, what about those news reporters, this isn’t a normal job, but most certainly have plain, flat personalities with detachment of their own self, morphing into what sells at a moment (often 3 and 2w3 enneagram cores).. That enable slander and propaganda and leave humanity in this hivemind.. Not that 2 and 3’s are necessarily dull, but when average or lower health, they do away with their own self, selling for an image based on outward presentation (counter to a 4’s intra, which isn’t necessarily “better” at an automatic, but when you sell away, you more often enable the upkeep of society, which… The types of triangle and the higher up hexads tend do.. They take higher prevalence, as they’ve a better means to allow ego-survival which preserves the Earth itself. In this way, 4 and 5 are less attached to Earth, outcasted at bottom, having climb up to their lines and look above from and oversee).
I would hate working for a yoga means where I am taking away from someone’s income.. With drug rehabs, it is the insurance that will be paying, which already costs something of course, but the insurance would cover my part, which wouldn’t be anymore than 15-20$ each person that attends for what it would accumulate a worth of. Insurance has their own issue, but I am giving something good from this process, it’s a complimentary addition that the rehab would pay for, insurance isn’t going to include yoga in its direct coverage..
Being an RN was once the most common job for a woman, right alongside teaching.. (Vocation, not transient). It is a well-necessary career, but why would someone want work a 10-12 hour shift so as to burn out and be u able self-care and therefore even care for/“nurse”— what the job is, others..?
Returning back to my centralized point, I look forward to helping prevent car accidents, spread of mental illness (from people who would commit suicide amid addiction and how it would depress those around, from child or domestic abuse committed out of substance use), continued substance use which leaves someone in a broken medical system… Same for preventing arrests in a more than broken, soul stunting legal system. For those I’d reach with my yoga and aromatherapy..
My future aspiration reminds me of a homeless man whom I believe was a drunkard.. I witnessed him be arrested in San Diego when I’d been visiting with a program I am under, and I’d felt for him pity, realizing that he is likely the victim of a broken world and police officers with their own neurosis project their joy in his arrest unrealized of he is not the person to arrest, but rather help. This would help veterans and officers as well, who probably often endure substance use from their ptsd, and having inclinations towards a more impulsive personality.
I realize that arresting such a person also induces a repeated cycle of more substance use from numbing traumatic means out. Which just repeats more spread of illness, arrest, mal-raising of children and divorce (more family sever),
more ego stifling from blaming the surface and not the deeper issue..
More lost lives in car accidents and more putting into a dysfunctional medical system.. By arresting and having no compassion for a had illness and their unresolved wounds from inside that result in their will to substance use, you take away other lives from a ripple effect and actually enable further crime on a more macro level. By not treating a person compassionately and correct, you increase the likelihood of their own death, development of something like psychosis which can result in violence or societal mishap at its worse (and with drug-induced, it tends be the violent type).. And someone may eventually just lash back and turn into someone who abuses out of their own hurt and victimization.
You then have hand in accessory murder, child abuse, preventable injuries and failed allowing emergency responders to attend things that couldn’t have prevented (more life loss), divorce, and mental suffering. Unfortunately, my mother got in the way of one of them, giving away my means without a consent, and I had some of my projects in those… I can only hope regain them through astral contact and prayer, be it with physical copy given back, or accessing my unconscious portal and re-accessing what I had conceived.
What people don’t understand is that things fall when just one pound over its inherent threshold pushes it down. Micro things weight down and cause a macro effect to the system of a whole.
And again, with my yoga, just one pound removed from what pushed downward will uplift back to oneself and the future, for those whose yoga has enough of a hand to pull up some of the weight that bounds one down into illness. Yoga won’t be enough to lift the gravity in some, but it will in others, and the frequency and time also tie in, I would only get come in weekly or twice that..
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is both alien to others yet utterly fundamental if one wants to understand why they do what they do.
sense to do so.
. I just like talking to people.
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