For all those like qaz that believe I exaggerate events..
Here I am physically abused too;
https://youtube.com/shorts/PelQzh6Bk...b0dJ1xoeTDbnqx
https://youtube.com/shorts/lGlq9e-i_...qqxUKOpx49gW2A
https://youtube.com/shorts/v7VvwaFod...MS7GeOUfE9SMWE
And from my mother with me as a minor, for my autism stimming, hitting me with my sister’s back brace, and on the left side there is bad psychological manipulation from my father:
https://www.dropbox.com/sh/482c6khl5...-bgma?e=1&dl=0
You see, all this invalidation and shit makes me defensive and having to show how how it is actually..
Before my sister’s boyfriend saw my parents actually abusing my sister psychologically first hand, he thought I was insane and my parents and sister convinced him that the videos I’ve recorded are just them reacting to a difficult psychotic daughter
As you can fucking see in the one with me as a teenaged minor, before my shadow split at 15 1/2, I was not even fucking reactive. All I could fucking do was run away from my 4D Se, physically abusive mom, couldn’t fight her back. I never used to be aggressive. I had it beaten out of me.
All I could fucking say was “fuck my family”, “no one ever has any fucking sympathy for me”, “both of you mother fucking assholes”. Not only was I exposed to sensory sports throughout all my childhood and in spite this never even developed physical force, I was also exposed to physically abusive family members and I would’ve been physically reactive back if I was 4D Se— just like my sister will do. But I couldn’t even react when I was choked at 11. I couldn’t even react when I was molested with anything beyond an arm jerk movement and tears. I couldn’t ever physically move well and with the needed body awareness and outside awareness and action in volleyball, swimming, gymnastics, tennis, horseback riding, plyometrics, etc, and aside from volleyball in my father’s club, was always put in beginner’s. Even made the freshman team and never made varsity.
This was all before doctors thought I’d a brain tumor for me finally fucking snapping.
And Qaz says my physical disorders may not be trauma caused but uh hahahah I was having symptoms of a brain tumor and didn’t have one, had muscle spasms and icepick suicide headaches from stress that stopped after my psychological split happened/
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachmen...c9fbfae602671&
Abuse did that to me.