Yeah, it might seem obvious to you, but for me it just seems like a joke from the universe that I have to do these things. Like, how come being aware of my body makes me feel happy and whole? I literally believed there was no point in having one, let alone take care of it.
I still don't know why we exist physically, but at least I've learned to appreciate being touched and given care
And please don't mock me for saying these things it took me a lot of work to get to this point
I'm being too vulnerable at this point