@VewyScawwyNawcissist Sorry I didn’t mean to imply you were picking apart my posts or screaming at me. What I meant was that if I discuss my issues with the ILI it might turn into an argument and I don’t want to argue with her because it could go badly (she might yell etc). Honestly, I don’t think she would want to talk about it either. I don’t think it will help. It will make it worse. Maybe later on down the line it’s doable. I only have so much control over the hurt I feel though. A bit of space from each other seems like the only solution. Also, she is so awkward about making plans to hang out but I won’t be manipulated into making plans all on her terms. Ok so I don’t call her as often and perhaps won’t see her quite as often. It’s not that bad though, we are still in each other’s lives. Ok I don’t want to tell her all about my past traumas and my journey of recovery..it’s not my fault it’s ended up that way. It’s not hers either, it’s just how it is.