When I was in my twenties I had the chance to go on a date with a girl I knew for a long time and had a crush on in my second country (I have dual Nationality/citizenship). We have the same age, I'm actually 16 days older than her. So we went to the restaurant and then she invited me at her house. It was her mother's house but her mother (recently divorced) was absent for a while (in France actually). I was really romantically attacked to her but in a "demisexual" (
) way for the lack of a better word but I was also very shy (I need a green light to unleash the Don Juan in me !).
As we began to relax in the living room, her on the sofa and me on a chair a few meters away, she began to tell me about her "friends" (rich people from the high society). She was telling me about the pornographic texts her friends were sending her and how funny and sexy it was etc... She would talk to me about her sexual life, that she wasn't virgin (In Islamic country this detail has its importance) but since I knew her dad she made me promise that I never tell anyone (esp her dad !) about this. "Of course ! I would never tell anyone even if you didn't ask" I said. As I was a bit shocked but trying to hide it, I didn't know what to say.
At one point, she asked me "What are you thinking ?" in a daring way. I didn't know what to say so I just answered "the same thing as you" hoping that she would take the initiative. She didn't say anything and kept reading some texts in her phone (do you remember the Nokia 3310 ?) And time went by, just like that, without anything happening. And then she asked me again the same question, and I gave her the same answer. Until one moment, when she seemed very bored, she almost gently kicked me out of the house, telling me that one of her "friends" was coming over to the house soon so I'd have to go. She escorted me out of the house and said "bye ! Maybe next time..." That was a total disappointment, I was thinking "so much for the "nice girl" I thought she was !" I was thinking that this relationship was supposed to be a serious one, like I saw her like a potential wife and at the end of that date I was thinking "Let's face it, she's a whore !!" and blaming myself for that awful thought !
Anyways, I was watching stuff on YT and came across this video. The "what are you thinking ?" moment triggered that memory. I lived that scene (almost !) and I was like that dude !