Member Questionnaire (CTzu)
What is beauty? What is love? Beauty is relative and permanent, Love is temporary and ingenuine.
What are your most important values? My comforts, pleasure, joys, belief, and principles.
Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place? I do, because it has the clarity of application akin to another religion.
Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you? It's a sign to show that world is ruthless. War and militaries are very obstructive as in to the world development.
Power, when it comes to responsibilities, is important as a way to be thoughtful in the application.
What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why? Sports.
Graphic design, sports, games, arts, tech, religion, philosophy, biography, sociology, history, psychology, science, etc.
Because I value any form of knowledge, no matter how unnecessary they are, as long as I enjoy and like it very well that could be applicable in advance. I also don't like to be close-minded of any new things or highlights in front of me so I often follow updates of things that I like, to the point it's too detailed as I'd be a walking dictionary that likes to provide those to people around me.
Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body? Yes. Pretty much.
What do you think of daily chores? Fine, I can be slacking but at least, I'm very committed to those, though, I need a kind of bit "push" to do so.
Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome. Books: Another, Harry Potter, Sherlock Holmes Series, Death On The Nile, Sleeping Murder, Ordeal by Innocence
Films: Star Trek, Indiana Jones, Fast & Furious, Transformer, Back to Future, Men In Black, Mission Impossible, Spy Kids, Kung-fu Hustle
Recently read: Hamlet
Recently watched: Spider-man 3
What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why? When I got overwhelmed by emotional atmosphere around me because I hate to be attached by emotion.
I smiled when there is something funny in front of me because I seek for laughs.
Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging? I feel separated from the environment, and I don't feel to belong at anything.
But I feel at one with the environment when I'm alone, no one else is there, a quite and empty space. I have a sense of belonging when I feel that they need more more than I want them to need me, but that might end up in an unnecessary disappointment.
What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself? Very indecisive, stubborn, inflexible, and self-righteous about myself.
I dislike of being too to-the-point in a way to express my thought.
What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself? I'm very principled and having a desire to do things as it should, a hard worker when being committed, no matter when I dislike the jobs or not, knowledgeable in some topics that I expertize, and helpful when someone needs help, no matter how less the importance of it, one of my friends said I'm capable at analyzing every single detail of an information, although not very fluent in communicating with a person, but capable of absorbing information of things so long I share my interest towards it. What I like about myself, uh, not sure about that, probably I like my humble side when it comes to socializing and my cheerful side.
In what areas of your life would you like help? I need a help to be more organized in terms of environmental structure, I also want to be more healthy and keep up with some exercises so I can build my strengths, I also would like to learn of how to understand people, their intention, and how to behave in communication since I'm not that good at all on this section. I also wanted to understand how it feels to have an expression that isn't monotone.
Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it. Yes.
It rather works like an irresponsive PC/Laptop/Computer.
You just stuck in your current step without moving to the next one by the same procedure to reach your objective, and it sucks.
What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with? I like people who are genuine about their feelings, because I'm not.
I dislike fake people who are trying to deceive anyone else due to their appearance, status, and importances.
I get along with LSE/SLI/IEE/ESE (sorta)/LII/SEE/LIE/IEI/ILI
How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner? I'm not quite sure, but to be honest, I feel that indifferent, perhaps, romance/sex is just a black on white agreement to legalize prostitution for the sake of possessing desires of others and might as well to destroy the rationale by one's wishful thinking.
I want a partner that is smart and being good at servicing my needs, I guess, that'd be useful if she could help me at finishing my jobs too. And overall, maybe just a fun partner that is very talkative so I can listen to her for like everyday to cheer me up and boost my moods.
If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why? I'd have a deep concern of their future, what they want and expect from me as their parent, and as a parent, I would have to be a hard worker who is willing to give anything for them, because, to be honest, a child would've believeed their parents contribution by what they've done to raise but not how they've taken care of them, so, I'm just as selfish as what I wanted to do as a good parent, which is working for them as a part of my selfishness and it's true to an extent that you don't have to take care of them when you already did as in their future.
A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction? I'd be passive-aggressive, to an extent that I actually disagreed but remains calm, but inside, of course I'd be a bit offended.
Or if that's necessary, I'd just try to explain why he/she is wrong about that and how to solve this discussion so there is no agreement/disagreement, I use to find a middle way to solve a confrontation, especially when it's personal.
Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one. My relationship to the society is no more than just an observer without participation unless when it's necessary.
I see people as those who don't have principled thoughts and remain to the consensus that is already the agreement before.
Overpopulation.
How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them? I'm very selective, it's rather hard for me to have flexible criterion about them. Usually, by default, I'd be polite but also very quite. I don't know what to talk about because I'm very indifferent, but sometimes, I'd like to see a friend that just came to approach me and talked to reveal their impression about me, they usually see me as a cold, distant, mysterious and aloof kind of person, and try to predict what they wanted to talk about, and it just went like a roller coaster, and there would be the moment whereas there is an all of a sudden silence and we didn't talk about anything unless when I started to re-generate a conversation, but usually, it's just to ask a question about on-going activity or just things that they have interests about. I ever tried to initiate a conversation and it didn't work well. I have a very close friend, and I usually share my secrets to him only, but sometimes, when he decided to spoil my secrets to friends that I didn't want them to know, I somewhat regretted it, and decided to give him a false one.
How do you behave around strangers? Polite, calm, but also indifferent, aloof, rather inexpressive and somewhat avoidant.