Originally Posted by
flowers and sugar
Idk, I've had friends up until I dumped everyone because I was miserable. Having friends isn't a miraculous solutions, you can have friends who make you shut down and live even more in your head.
The major depression I had, I'd put 80% of it on feeling lonely when surrounded by people. I have a big ol' zero friends irl right now, yet I'm actually doing better and not having my efforts sabotaged. I really let the wrong people take too much space, it's like they controled my life, how I had the right to feel, it was a nightmare.
Then again, there's a drive in me pushing me towards people, and I have a will to live well with others. All I need now is to find out how to live well with myself through that.
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