Okay, I have been mulling and questioning this for a little while over my type. Mostly I have been overthinking it I think but, I would really like some confirmation to see if I am an SEI over and IEI. I know I have Fe creative, Ti mobilizing, and Te-Polr no doubt. In MBTI personality typing I have typed ISFJ and a Si-leading in that category. However, socionics Si is a little different and I am questioning if my internal sensations are rather just Ni. WHile I do feel the most comfortable being typed as an SEI, I have seen myself in a lot if IEI aspects and certain Beta ideals. I have my own way about viewing and going about things so I just want to double check against my personal bias with other peoples perspectives so I can be sure.
I want to mention that I have grown up a lot around heavy Gama and Delta influence so, it also makes me question if I would fit in better with the Beta quadrant as I am often surrounded by both quadrants. I have had Alpha influence however, I have honestly not have had a lot of direct Alpha influence until the past year or two. I feel very conflicted in where I belong a bit as I have often felt like the odd one out
-I enjoy my comforts very much but, I will sacrifice for a period time or adjust if I have too. I do need a safe place to chill that's comfortable though at the very least. Otherwise, I can adapt.
-I struggle with starting a project unless a) its for someone b) I break it up into little bits so it feels less intimidating c) it's my duty d) I have a passion about it
-I have a strong will but, I don't think I come across as having one or I use it when completely necessary. If I have to use it, it is often out of tact and I know there is no other way it will work.
-If I go about approaching a social situation, I am often looking for the right words or time to go about it
-I like to look for the meaning behind things and see if there is anything deeper. I like to look for patterns and feel very comfortable recognizing visual or behavioral patterns. I cant always accurately predict the patterns but I can feel the pattern and escalate it or desecrate it when necessary.
-I love to compare and contrast. I am more inclined to look for what is different then what is constant.
-I think about the future but I don't always know how to get there.
-I can be kind of animadverted with aesthetics. I'm not usually bothered by other peoples aesthetic unless it seems out of place or people try to mold me to a certain aesthetic or that I have to like theirs.
-I find it appealing when people compliment me on the fit or texture for choice of clothing.
-I would be extremely unhappy working in a job that I was not passionate about or had to do a lot of physical labor for the rest of my life.
-I have an interesting imagination
-As a child, I partook in a lot of art's and crafts and I have always been good with my hands
-My family has mentioned how creative I am and with my friends its more my analytical skills
-All of my hand skills I have learned through the internet and by watching
-I like sports but I can tire out easily
-I can be very territorial about my space and my items however, it doesn't come up as I can usually keep people away from those things
-I don't like being weak, however I would rather be a support then lead
-I heavily dislike conflict and when people are pushy
-I enjoy a relaxed atmosphere or a slow escalating thrill like one with lots of emotional enthusiasm and support.
-I hate lacking passion, It feels like I am living in a grey world while I am desperate for colour.
-I wish I had someone who could show me that there is more and it is achievable, especially when I am stuck and I am feeling anxious about the clouds coming around me and it starts to feel grey.
-I know my limits generally in what I can achieve and what I cant
-I don't enjoy cooking too much unless for specific reasons
-While I am not great at telling a crafted joke, a lot of people find my observations of life and my thoughts heavily amusing and funny.
That's about it! All alternate perspectives are greatly appreciated!