Time to exercise.
Phasing skinny jeans out of my wardrobe.
Do I wanna spend my lunch hour grocery shopping or shopping for headbands? Big decisions.
kinda wonder if any online discussion about Si will ever go beyond "I liked XY food"
I have sacrificed the things that bring me comfort (but also make me lazy) ... In hopes that I'd be, in my terms, better. And for each goal I complete, I'd reward myself in equal measure with something I'd sacrificed.
Honestly pretty proud of this idea so far. Was funny to see my SEI friend's horrified reaction when he'd heard I even sacrificed music (our beloved). But I feel like I'm going a little crazy without music also. Bah, this won't be forever...
Death is the engine of Earth
Things that I think might be examples of Si ego in me:
Um I guess I notice senses better than intuitives? Sort of kind of? Sometimes?
I taste food as kind of all being the same-ish except for really weird tasting things or if I really try to focus on how it tastes as well, but honestly I don't care too much what I eat either, with one caveat, that it is healthy.
I still don't understand what Si means, but basically since I have weak intuition I am a Si type.
If any other Si egos have a better idea of what Si is then I would like to know.
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The reward of your goal should just be a feeling of achievement, the best feeling of them all, that you got something done. Goals should be something you really want to achieve, something you really want to have. The end should be rewarding in of itself.
Your goals in life will never end, there will just be another goal to take its place. So why not just set aside time to relax instead of making it something to win?
Tension, like when your work has deadlines? Depends on how confident I am that I can get it done in that amount of time. I will be distracted by loud noise, but background noise is fine. Coercion? What is meant by coercion? Because if someone was threatening me or forcing me to do something I really did not want to do, I would feel awful. But if it's just the chores or something that I didn't particularly want to do but had no strong feelings about, fine, whatever... Especially if I stand to gain something out of it.
Monotony, I would say I usually hate it, but I do study Russian, which involves a lot of repetition in order to learn it. I do not mind repeating things in order to achieve something.
I usually do not express feelings of love through physical care, but through words... although I have not had a chance where physical care would be possible, what you mean like kisses or something? I am still kind of confused?
I can feel tension in my muscles if I pay attention to it, which is why I don't, as I tend to stiffen my body and curl my spine into awkward positions, and it drives me nearly mad when reading about S as I over focus on every slight pain now... Headache, dry mouth, lower back pain... gahh! No! I do not want to focus on these things, it's just weird to hyper focus on these things because I am always in pain and will never feel perfect so why even should I think about it!!!
And I still do not know what is meant by a harmonious external state!
Well I feel slightly sick trying to focus on an individual part of my body and now I feel a headache...
Add to my confusion and pain why don't you?
Still I can't see where I have Ni or Ne so Si ego it is for now.
Death is the engine of Earth
i like eating xy food
Si/Ne valuers, what does Si PoLR look like when you see it, how does it make you feel, and what do you think about it?
Happy National Salad Month.
Or not. National Salad Month is a ploy by big dressing to trick people into eating more salad.
I like going on magnificent and daring exploits of the impossible is nothing rainbow to cheat death like emperor Palpatine said to Anakin and rally more troops to my cause of total devilish eyes of God rampaging of the toadstool Super Mario Sunshine twinkle twinkle little star hamburger.
Palpatine should work at Burger King, totally, and spray ketchup out of a jetpack like Boba/Jango Fett on psycho medicine. Those guys are ISTPs, they like to act crazy!! (Sidious is INTJ).
I was always a very playful and fun loving Meganium, wishful, flowing, bright, cheerful, exuberant, passionate, loving, caring, sweet, misery refined, elegant, growing, evolving, magical, evanescent, silver wise, crowned, elevated, euphoric, stunning, rapture clad, dreamy, blissful, blizzarding, aura musical, resonant, vibrant, exquisite, luster robed, but ultimately, through rare Wartortle wisdom, I became Lugia!!
Father Crow (Ho-Oh) is God, invincible, immortal, eternal, everlasting, salvation, auroras, glitter, fragrance, sparkle, zap, psycho boosted, enigmatic, unleashed, ultimate, archaic, dinosaur!!
I'm very proud of these:
Why was H!tler a vegetarian?
What do you call Belgian Nazis?
Who was the greatest German pastry chef in Africa?
Hypochondria is the most obvious sign lol. Especially Si POLR + Fe lead in EIE. Hypochondria induced hysteria . Of course there's other factors influencing hypochondria-like behaviour, depending on Psyche Yoga type, generally 1F and 4F subdue it and 3F strengthen it. Hypochondria is a lot less noticeable in 4F Si POLR for instance.
Examples of hypochondria: Defining themselves through alleged illnesses, conversation topics revolve around perceived physical illnesses, deformities, etc. (also typical 3F). Having some mysterious undiagnosable/untreatable disease is another one. I feel that may be some kind of Victim (Self-victimizing) behaviour. You know kinda like a way to excuse themselves for rude behaviour and stuff. Funny enough I rarely see Ni-leads doing this. But most Ni-creatives I know do this.
Extreme lack of attention to surroundings is another one. I mean walking straight into a wall or falling into a manhole kind of inattentiveness. Even though I am 1D Si, I always pay attention to my surroundings unconsciously while my minds is wandering somewhere else. Si POLRs seem to lack this reflex. This being said it may be my 1F that causes this (because I know a few Ne leads that are also very inattentive lol)
Other than that, Si POLRs (even more so than Ni POLRs) are extremely tense. Visibly tense in the back, neck, face, etc. It's no wonder they have trouble relaxing and winding down if they are always so tense and stressed. Compare this with SLI for instance, you know how SLI have a kinda dispassionate look but really what they have is an extremely relaxed face. No tension at all, and after emoting their face quickly relaxes. Meanwhile in EIE for instance emotions show strongly and "stay" with tensed muscles much longer.
Personally Si POLRs bother me a bit because of EJ temperament. Some are cool but some got a stick up their ass. Hypochondria (and other 3F behaviours) bother me a lot. Being 1F I am generally unattentive to other's physical state except if it's obvious. Anyways 3Fs tend to hate me once they get to know me lol
Life is soup. I'm a fork.
ELVF(sexta ena) - The "poet" - Andersen
counter-phobic 6w5 2w1 9w1 - the "Good Samaritan" tritype