This doesn't make any sense to me, but I realized that I have an internal constant influx of creative energy coming to my mind, that I need to release, especially among other people.
So periodically I need to have half conscious half drunk retarded like conversations and after that I feel an intense flow of peace emergin from within
I don't know why this happens, but I get extremely blissful after such moments, just like most extroverts feel after interacting with large groups of people.
Someone with good sensing explain why does this happen to my body, but I guess it's from the validation I get from impacting others with my creativity. But I just don't get the blissful feeling