I can see this more, that would make sense to me Ni-wise. I do like trying new things and taking risks sometimes, I just need a push from someone else I trust, & I like having a backup plan. The friend I described in the video? When I told her I couldn't stay in the pits of the midwest anymore after my divorce, and I was going to be miserable if I had to stay there, she invited me to stay with her in Los Angeles to see if I'd like it better there. I knew that even if I didn't like it in LA, it'd at least give me a few months to make a new plan to never have to go back to the Great Plains again. & it did! It gave me a chance to clear my head and get my shit together enough to move to the Northeast to be near my family! (also i never have to set foot in a square state again if i don't want to yaaaay~)
Aww dang haha I'm surprised someone watched all of both of them! Yeah I think that was part of my problem in seeing myself in IEI, too. I'm not very flashy. I like being understated & cute! X3 But I'm starting to see Se seeking more, too (especially now that I'm starting to *get* Se). I thought my admiration for ambitious people who are able to take charge and know what they want was Te. (& nothing weird taken, thank you, that was very kind and you made my day!! <3 )
-I've always been imaginative! I even wrote fanfiction when I was a kid hahaha. I actually came up with the first...oh god it's weird talking about this in public...axolotl mermaid creature...when I was 12, and it started with one story where it was one of them and they were trying to hide among humans and he fell in love with a human girl. It snowballed from there. Now I'm 28 and have this super huge binder hidden away, and a super secret world-building wiki, where I have all this writing on the different species, creatures, religions, etc...although the main plot, if I ever got around to writing it, would still center around the one main axolotl mercreature man and the noblewoman he travels the world with. hahaha I'm never going to do anything with it
-ugh I didn't go into a lot of detail about it in the video but the worst is when my ex would ask for advice on his new relationship, with the girl he had been emotionally cheating on me with, and I would give it to him because I'm a complete pushover that puts other people ahead of myself. He wouldn't listen to me about how coming off strong and not being honest with her was going to ruin his chances with her. I told him she would find out he wasn't being honest, it was a small town. & sure enough, when she found out about everything he had lied to her about, he got despondent over it and tried to come back to me for advice after it fell apart on him. Flat out "I told you so, called it" moment right there hahaha. It's happened with other people too but that was the most satisfying time honestly.
-& I still have no clue on enneagram honestly. I think 9 but eh. *shrug*
But thank you!! Glad to be here!