Depression during the Pandemic...

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You can talk about how you are feeling during pandemic in here.

I have no idea... when I'm alone I have no idea how I'm feeling. I have no idea how to describe it. I'm not sad, I'm not angry, I'm just completely numb and the external world seems boring. Can't call it bored tho, because I do find stuff to do and think about, but in terms of emotion . This is usually how I am by myself, kind of empty or unaware.

Emotions I become aware of: anxiety or anger..or when I meet ppl I like I can't help but smile / feel happy, but these always have some external trigger. Don't all emotions have external trigger?

otherwise I don't feel much nuance internally, I can like smile and behave happy/cheery but there is nothing really behind all that / just a mask.

now if you'd ask me what I think.. all sorts of thoughts / the mind is always busy ruminating, like a dog that's always chewing on his favorite bone.