Quote Originally Posted by Shytan View Post

I have considered all these things and my problem is: Maybe this is a manifestation of my type's vice (envy) coupled with my core fear? It's a form of fantasy as to what was and what could be and a reaction to rejection?
sure

For me, I have to KNOW. And I will find out, one way, or another. It can get messy. And I am willing to accept that risk.