Yeah, true.
I think people have this idea that I’m super slutty and I’ve dated a shit ton of people but... Sex is really hard for me. I’m not confident in my body, I get ashamed. It takes awhile for me to trust someone enough to fuck. It’s like, every other part of dating comes naturally (flirting, cuddling, making out, sharing things, etc.) but in the sex part I’m broken. And I don’t know whether this is all from being abused or if type has any play.
Yes, they are. Thanks for that.
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
if it comforts you, the SEE guy I dated for a while this year, a boisterous and loud guy who consumed too much drugs and was a bit crazy, to the point that one night broke the window of the place I was in just to harass me, and tattoed my name on his arm after 2 weeks of dating... well.. he was a shy and bullied kid too. when he showed me his pictures of him in his early 20's (id card), i couldnt believe it. apparently he lost his virginity around 22/23 and from that point his life changed... I've questioned too if what i saw then was a SEE or something else gone weird.. but the SEE was undeniable...
i saw you've been saying something about virginity and self realization too... i think it's true... and maybe yes, real maturity-types come with age (+ necessary experiences)
LOL, i feel like that’s something i’d do if i totally lost my shit. lol. name tattoos are the worst, worse than tramp stamps (when they’re both, that takes the cake ).
that totally got me off topic just had to laugh lol, but thanks for sharing. i think you’re pretty cool
so are most of the people in this thread, only cool kids allowed
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
lmao agreed 100%, but it was the point I realized for good how wrong the whole thing was, so name tattoo are not so so bad in the end... :/ lol
>values emotional connection and doesn't feel too physically confident
>must be intuitive
seems legit
smh, pls kids dont fight
lmao, i love watching a good cat fight, keep going. I must say that Remiel is winning tho, he doesn't have to put in so much effort in his insults.
Anyways, update, yesterday I rode a boat on a lake for the first time in ten years and then I got really fucking stoned. 10/10 day for sure. Felt so free in the wind and the waves. Oh but then it all went to shit when my mom took my fucking phone away - remember I'm an adult. So now I'm forced to use my laptop, woo-hoo. She also locked me out of the house last night. I'm pretty sure everyone thinks I'm dead, but I was able to reach out to my gf on facebook. She said she could give me her trap phone if it comes down to that.
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Update: so my friend gave me some meth. More than I’ve ever had in my possession before andddd.... started off snorting one line but I felt like it wasn’t enough so I did more. Ended up maybe overdoing it but not to any point that it got bad; I’m really enjoying it. I ended up talking non stop a mile a minute: one story branches into a side story branches into a side story goes back to the main story branches to a side story etc... on the phone with my girlfriend. For several fucking hours. Then she went to sleep so I found another friend to talk on the phone with crazily, who I just finished talking to like 20 minutes ago cuz they had to go somewhere. But we’re gonna call each other again later because I have to keep going to let it all out. I even smoked weed out of both a bong and a pipe and it did nothing for me. Meth wins the arm wrestle.
This high has also convinced me of a new possible future: philosophy professor
Of course, that’s if becoming a celebrity doesn’t work out.
Anyways, my parents kicked me out AGAIN over something very stupid but - this time it seems permanent and I’m better packed this time with more things I didn’t consider to bring last time. I still have no money to my name and no job. I took pictures of my moms card information so I could use it for Uber’s and food and I’ve already spent everything on it ($75 I think?). I was a little nervous at first with no steps to take but I’ve come up with a couple options. Tonight I’m spending the night with my best friend who will offer me to move in when I have a job; but until then I’m either going to stay at a different friends dorm for roughly two weeks (when I get them $30 and 2.5 gs of weed upfront - it’s gonna be a challenge to find that. I might even get a job before I can acquire that lol.) OR my best friend said I can sleep in their car until that point.
Wish me luck!
I hope this all falls into place - that I can get a job, move in officially, and save money to go back to school and rub it in my parents face. The major concerns right now: how to get food and how to get more medicine when my supply runs short: :/
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
After all these years @fresh meat, you could probably settle everything if you do a 5-10 minute video talking all about yourself, freestyle.
Don't get high first and make sure you aren't tired or "uneven" in your mood (you know what I mean).
“My typology is . . . not in any sense to stick labels on people at first sight. It is not a physiognomy and not an anthropological system, but a critical psychology dealing with the organization and delimitation of psychic processes that can be shown to be typical.” —C.G. Jung
Nope, not at all. I think she’s boring.
Maybe, but I am an idiot when it comes to technology. Even so, I feel like typing videos are sort of awkward and fake to a fault.... you kinda come in acting a certain way even if it’s not conscious. And I know what you mean!
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Extra, extra! Read all about “fresh meat”’s 12th page of fucking insanity!
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Hope itll work out for you. Probably will. Did for me
Do more drugs, Professor Bled!
How old are you, OP?
I wanna be adored in the same way that I get hypnotized by people.
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
@fresh meat is the same age as me. The difference is that I only seem to have lived a quarter of his experiences so far.
This is a bit depressing.
No, I won't snort snow.
“I want the following word: splendor, splendor is fruit in all its succulence, fruit without sadness. I want vast distances. My savage intuition of myself.”
― Clarice Lispector
Babs, you have traveled and experienced more culture than most here. Drug use alone is in one general category of experience, with subcategories within that. Feel free to skip it. Some have a harder time saying no to drugs. No reason to get depressed because you aren't a junkie yet. lol Neither is fresh meat, thankfully. I could blame that on weak but valued Se when he gets dragged along with the current of those he is surrounded by. But, I won't.
“My typology is . . . not in any sense to stick labels on people at first sight. It is not a physiognomy and not an anthropological system, but a critical psychology dealing with the organization and delimitation of psychic processes that can be shown to be typical.” —C.G. Jung
You have my permission to blame it on that, darlin’. But I just want to comment that my experiences are not just drug related! Life is a treasure trove. Unfortunately there still is a lot I haven’t had the chance to partake in - mostly due to money reasons, not having someone to do it with (I can’t do anything alone), parents, etc.
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
As soon as I find potential suitors who shower me with love, suddenly all the drugs are gone. Love might save me.
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚