my IEE friend said i ask so many oddly specific questions lmao
also im probably about to not show up to work and get fired but I really have to shit and I’m locked out of the house and my phone is on 1%
Sp last lyfe!!
my IEE friend said i ask so many oddly specific questions lmao
also im probably about to not show up to work and get fired but I really have to shit and I’m locked out of the house and my phone is on 1%
Sp last lyfe!!
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
This kind of thing is a huge personal hint to you sent by the nether world to lay off the mind altering substances for awhile. Its a Siren Song to stop the zaniness and keep things as level and as physically safe for you as possible, at least for now.
Going into chemical journeys bring their insights, but you DO pay for it, whether during or after, and in ways you never expect. Mental health is key, because unlike physical ailments, its almost impossible to escape them (mental health issue) for the entire life journey and the mind always degrades backwards as the years march forward.
I’m kind of getting more stable because I’m recharging and catching up on food and sleep. I was considering suicide at the time of the post but I was considering it more as an option if all the other plans don’t work out rather than as an emotional decision or reaction to feelings of depression (which weren’t present). In nature, when a creature is totally starved of all resources it has no option but to die; if it was part of a pack but becomes too weak to keep up it’s left behind.
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
drugs are really my only friends
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Also my IxTx roommate asked me how he should emotionally respond to someone/a situation and that seems pretty Fe seeking and maybe I am Fe if he felt like coming to me
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
i feel like my yelling and crying today deserved an Oscar like i did it so well the fucking neighbor came outside to see what was happening lol it kinda feels good to go crazy sometimes
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
i seem to be in situations where im high and want to fuck the person next to me often
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
This thread is a . How about you go read some of the poetry I post on the poetry thread if you actually like it.
I like the ice cream cones at the zoo
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
partying at hotels is my new luxurious lifestyle
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Update: I’m getting more coke tonight and having lots of sex in a hotel!!
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Side note: I LOVE partying with my beta homies it’s a pure simplicity of drugs and hoes, and lots of humor (this morning I tried to wake them up by hiding in the closet and playing a 10 hour loop of the iPhone alarm; I was on a lot of uppers and didn’t sleep of course and was bored with just lying around hearing them snore)
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
can’t believe I went through all my coke in one night lol, spent the last of my money onnit but I know I’m gonna end up getting more tomorrow, it has to be a real whole weekend bender
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
The desire to take things to the limit and beyond is so Sx-first. Just be careful, because both the body and your friends have real limits.
I once thought that coke wasn’t as good as coffee as a stimulant. It’s great as a pain killer and because of that, it should be able to reduce psychological pain, too, but it has a secondary, more subtle (at first) effect. When I was able to do an effectively unlimited amount of the stuff, it removed some blocks I didn’t know I had and turned me into a true sociopath.
It opened a window into into a place that even I think is very, very bad. I haven’t done coke since then, and won’t again.
YMMV.
I feel like people have this idea that it’s this super, super hardcore thing but once they try it they realize it’s actually really casual. Yeah it’s addictive and once you do one line you just wanna keep it going (I did at least 3 grams with the help of other people in the course of one night) but I don’t think the addictive potential is particularly high. Hell, I think weed is a lot more addictive - psychologically and not physically of course - because it’s a better pain killer. And another huge thing I look at when it comes to addiction potential is how effective is it to do on your own. Sure, you could do a bump on your own but it’s really pointless if you’re just sitting around and it doesn’t last long enough to get lost into some solitary project.
If you’re looking for a stimulant that’s highly addictive and just as good when you do it alone (actually I highly prefer to do it on my own) then look no further than meth. It lasts 20x more than coke and it’s good for individual activities like: jacking off for hours on end, writing a book, posting on forums, cleaning, reading, etc. Coke is just a party drug but I highly prefer it. Speaking of, while I was in the middle of partying at the hotel some cops knocked at the door and I scrambled to hide that shit but it turns out they were just warning us to keep the noise down. We all took turns making out with this one girl and she told me I was the most passionate.
Anyways, I went back home because I wanted to sleep in an actual bed and not on an inflatable mattress or a couch or in a car (which is also a big reason why I’ve been on uppers a lot, to avoid shitty sleep) and also because I’m totally broke and the only way I can get free food is by being here. As soon as I get a job and/or start selling weed I’ll be out the door again. I’m slightly pissed at my friends for not yet helping me get quick cash like they said they would. I’m definitely gonna miss all the random chaos and freedom and not knowing what’s gonna happen next.
I’m not gonna lie, I get like emotionally attached to every person that I hang out with for an entire day because I’m looking for someone to be a permanent partner in crime in adventures and I get excited and think they’ll be the one.
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
I spend a lot of time observing people and running simulations in my head about what they would have to be thinking to act the way they do.
The quoted above sounds like what I imagine to be the inner dialogue of a 6w7 ESI-Se artist that I know. I find her very attractive and completely unstable. She wants so much to be seen, but is scared to death to stand still. One minute she痴 passionate, then she can稚 be found for days.
Head types are like, unable to be followed sadly (for you ). Our logic often doesn’t make sense to anyone but ourselves, but it runs on a spectrum. Ex. a 5’s organized logic and explanations probably make more sense than a 7’s quick on-your-feet thinking and restless abandon (though 5 could still be too abstract to grasp at times). 6 is like, in the center of the madness and they don’t really have a way of dealing with it like 5s and 7s; they rely on something they can trust in the outside world to guide them.
With a 7 wing there’s often a taste of “Fuck this, I’m out bitches!!” wherein they momentarily leave all the 6 principles behind to chase whimsical things. Hence, not standing still and vanishing for days. This is my default setting, and occasionally I have things that ground me to reality and support me like a 6 (this is where my 6 wing comes into play, and it’s mostly just me being loyal to people who I can drag into any situation).
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
@Aylen @queentiger i need help from my Fe sisters to rally people up in here!!!
@voider i need your Fi evaluation of my soul
the typing doesn稚 stop here bitches
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Originally Posted by fresh meat
Can someone explain what this is specifically because it’s a common reoccurrence. Is it sx? Fi? I was meditating on IEE being another option again because this kind of seems like getting excited over possibilities (Ne) and how it connects to people and seeing where relations have a role (Fi).
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
which one sounds more like me?
https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.per...t.html%3famp=1
https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.per...t.html%3famp=1
i see bits and pieces of both but the descriptions seem so similar to me
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
I致e compiled a list of my traits that I think are Beta or Gamma:
Beta
I like one on one time with people but I値l always prefer a rowdy group adventure
I have a history of being dramatic at inappropriate times and places
you値l rarely hear me talk about personal values and are more likely to hear me make an observation about something that i pulled out of my ass
i am not easily triggered
i don稚 need achievements to be happy
I get easily bored in dry environments
i change my presentation depending on what group I知 with
Gamma
i value my relationships and will do anything to keep them running
i have a good sense of how close i am to someone and what i can and cannot do in regards to that and i respect that
i try my best to keep secrets and i succeed (depending on how serious they are)
i like money
i like nine inch nails
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
@fresh meat I'm laughing so hard at the gamma "i like nine inch nails" cus they're my fave atm and so many gammas like them insanely accurate