being outside during inclement weather
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being outside during inclement weather
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Each essence is a separate glass,
Through which Sun of Being’s Light is passed,
Each tinted fragment sparkles with the Sun,
A thousand colors, but the Light is One.
Jami, 15th c. Persian Poet
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I had a pet snail because I couldn't have a real pet. It was better that way. I kept it in a shoe box and changed the grass inside daily.
I already said this before but:
I was more science-y and LII ish. More logical seeming kinda then I come across here. I loved reading books about science, and I got a perfect score on tests. I remember once the mayor of the city personally congratulated me for being so smart. That made me feel good about myself kind of.
However, even tho I was intelligent- I was easily bullied and had a horrible time socially and fitting in. I was too sweet and nice for a guy. Felt intense social pain and like a male Carrie White 'loser' since I was 5 years old. My face looked too sweet and innocent (even in reality this isn't always the case obv. lol) and too 'please kick me here' ish- so it's no wonder why I got picked on so much, but I didn't really objectively "see this" until I was older, so at the time it's like 'ugh why are people being so mean to me.../run away and cry.' If anybody was truly nice to me, I idealized them a bit too much - because I wasn't used to it, and was so used to str8-m bullies. I related a lot to the character Mallow from Super Mario RPG legend of the seven stars, who I think is IEI. Tho I felt like a vulnerable cute little mage on the inside, the outside of me looked like a big strong man (at about 9 or 10 now). I went through puberty super early.
I liked sex and romance even from a young age, although in more appropriate levels for my age- obviously there was a tempo to it. Most boys seemed to like shows about fighting and violence and guns, I still liked that (Tho not so much the guns) but liked romance much, much, more. I was obsessed with love and 'in love with love' many times. I wanted Pepe le pew to get the skunk he always wanted, he was like my role model/admirer and I would get super excited when I watched a pepe le pew cartoon- like it was a spiritual experience it was weird. I took everything to heart/very sensitively, even though I was so intelligent and could have been a brain surgeon by now if only I had some Te. Oh well.
so yeah I definitely was a pure IEI pretty much. The 'romantic' type. Also this SLE girl always defended me from bullies, would pounce on them, give them black eyes- and had hair like Fefe Dobson. <3 It wasn't all bad, but yeah I pretty much hated school and Te rules and just kind of wanted to play/make video games all day and 'fall in love.' Now I see myself more objectively though and I don't feel so trapped in myself like I did before. It is more balanced feeling, which is good.
when I was a very young kid like before school and socialization- my mom said I just sit there really well-behaved and it kind of freaked her out lol. Like I just liked to sit there and think in my Ni world at 0-3 months.
I was actually never considered to be a bright kid in elementary school. I was pretty soft and fragile--and a scrawny waif. Also quite credulous. I was that kid that everyone looked at expectantly to pass the multiplication quiz so we could all have a pizza party--as if I were the only one who would stop it from happening. Math has never really been my thing, especially geometry. I didn't really start reading until the end of middle school and into high school. Then, it was mostly fantasy novels set in a medieval-ish world. I've branched out a lot since then, and I'll read a lot of different stuff, both nonfiction and fiction. I eventually got a reputation for being smart but never spoke to anyone because no one really seemed like they were interested. I got picked on for being gay. Especially back then, I had some pretty obvious traits. Now, not so much, but still somewhat. Some people can tell, and others can't. Pretty sure at this point that my parents wanted a rough and tumble Southern country boy as a kid, but it's not what they got.
I used to think that I was really into tech as a kid. I eventually concluded that it was just an outlet. There was nothing else in this desert of a place. Lol