Hello Myst, hello everybody. Sorry for not being around much but I'm under exams and every time I open the forum half a day flies away..
I think I talk alot about health because it heavily impacted my worldview.
When I was 16 I had 2 surgeries on my knee due to a disease where some bone would fragment so I did cartilage implant and could not push the foot to the ground for 2 months. Whene I started to walk again I discovered I could not due to pain, I stayed in this condition for many years because orthopedics would focus on the hole on the knee while I was convinced the problem was muscular because leg had lost all mobility, I could not bent it nor extend it and it lookek like Gollum's leg. In the end I was right and managed to somewhat fix it by myself by doing exercises to restore the correct posture of the leg despite everyone telling me it was impossible.
Being in a condition of weakness gives an interesting perpective. You see how brutal this world is. I realize I came off as a turd with the "conquer" stuff but what I basically meant is that, this world made me cynical. I would like to believe in honor, love, unicorns and other magical things but what I've learnt is that what you really want will not come at you, you have to take it. It reminds me of that scene from the motorcycle diaries (great movie btw) where the young Che Guevara (I'm not comunist!!1! lol) says he has asthma and has to fight for every breath. It's more of a life philosophy than me harassing people.
I can't judge my own aggressiveness so I don't know if what annoys me is also what I'm doing all the time . But with meaningless I basically meant, when it comes from idiots.
On the duty fullfiller, well that just sounds boring!