Originally Posted by
falsehope
To me, it looks like IEE. Also, I know few IEEs and they are all into psycho-typing but none of them thinks he's IEE while they are more then clearly IEEs. IEEs have trouble identifying logical structure of their own psyche and fantasize about their own abilities. So far, I've seem IEEs thiking they are LIIs, LSEs, ILEs and even one thinking he's LSI.
You gave plenty of things to point out that you are IEE. First of all, you point out that you would like to give objective information. This is very extroverted thing. Then you describe anarchy of the soul, like thinking whatever you'd like to. This is very Ne. What you describe is chewing on all thoughts good or bad, which is very Ne/Fi thing. For me as ILE, this is about thinking about various options / concepts, regardless they might be good or wrong.
Then you are speaking in abstract way about love, which is very Ne and Fi. You also admit existential loneliness which is also very IEE.
The rest of your talk is very Ne / Fi and then I am completely sure you are IEE and that you will have trouble accepting it and I have feeling that any number of logical arguments will not make you think so so easily. Socionics is logical system and requires logical thinking to guess the type properly. This is because in IEEs logic is extremely low and this makes navigating in complex theories impossible no matter how hard you try, it's just source of confusion.
You might think you are alpha or beta because you are primary Ne and might not posses typical seriousness of Delta quadra. You are most relaxed of all deltas, but that doesn't put you into alpha or beta quadra.
So summarizing, your abstract speech about feelings and love points to to NF temperament which puts you out of alpha quadra. Your desire to be objective points to extroversion. And you do not speak like EIE, you are more like Ne and Fi valuing person. The NF betas are more reality disconnected people when talking about ideas but your diary is more reality based.