Originally Posted by
Reyne
Si: I don't consider myself good at it. Even though I often promise myself to live healthier, sleep at night, eat the right food, etc etc, I always end up messing up. I suck at taking care for my health. When I got a medical problem I always procrastinate, until it becomes too evident and I'm forced to go to the doctor. When I have little problems I procrastinate too. For example, I had acne. I had to put a cream on my skin, but I never did it, because I forgot, and didn't like the sensation of the cream on my skin. It was always my mother or my sister recalling me to put the cream on, sometimes. I like Si. I would like to be better at it, so that I would be healthier, but I'm just too lazy and forgetful. I feel good when others provide me Si, for example when they make a comfortable environment. This is actually something I do too. But also when they cook great food etc. But I try doing the same sometimes. I like when others eat something I cooked and like it.
Se: I'm bad at it because of he examples I already made, but at the same time I'm also a pretty "strong" person. I mean, at school I've always been kind of been an outcast. Lonely. But other misfits always received a bad treatment in my class (and I often defended them), while I never got messed up with. The reason is that I've always reminded my aggressive side to the idiotic people, and every time someone would start considering lacking respect, I would hint little stuff to remind them it was a bad idea. It could be few but intense words, a stare in the eyes, or a little physical reminder (for example in the locker rooms a dude tried to pull a door against my face, laughing. I took the door before it reached my face, and pressed it against him. He became a sandwich between the door and the wall). Other Se stuff is aesthetic stuff I think. I don't really care about that. I just like a plain look. I don't think I like it when others use Se, but I sometimes like using it. I have a love-hate relationship with competition and violence.
Ni: I'm good at predicting outcomes, and think a lot about the future and the past. I also have tons of moments of philosophical moments, thinking about the meaning of life, happiness, and the sense of my and other people's lives. When I talk about this stuff with other people they tend to be blunt, and dismiss everything. My mother was always like "yes ok, now think about useful stuff instead of wasting time on useless matters" and "instead of digging deeper in problems, you have to avoid them, like your father. You're not like him, in fact you're impractical". I like when I can talk about "philosophical" stuff with other people, but I also hate when people constantly remind me of the time flow. I want to do things in my own time schedule (it's a vague one... maybe I don't even got one, and just need a reason to procrastinate).
Ne: I constantly look for different ways to live my life. One day I want to be a police officer, and a few minutes later a great economist. One day I want to learn 10 new songs on the guitar, and the next day I want to buy a swedish goat horn to make viking music. I like ideas more than reality. In my mind everything is more beautiful and exciting, and reality tends to be a big delusion. Too much details to handle... I don't even notice them. I like it when people talk ideas with me, but it doesn't happen a lot. Most of the (few) people that like talking with me about ideas just listen to me, without partecipating actively. I like that too actually, lol. The only exception is my girlfriend. We end up inventing weird stories about random stuff. For example, we went to the colosseum. It was boring. Just a bunch of stones. So one of us would point at different points, and start inventing why it was made in a certain way with funny stories. I liked it a lot. I think these are my favourite moments. But I'm actually too lazy to change things most of the time. For example, I tend to listen always to the same music because I don't want to create new playlists because of laziness, and because playlists not made by me ain't familiar.
Ti: There's a reason why in MBTI I've always been types as a Ji-dom. My thoughts tend to be very autonomous. Everybody thinks A, and I'll think B. I'm very contraflow, if we talk about this. I know it's different in socionics, but the subjective nature of the introvert IE means that it's still like this. Even though I see that Ti people in socionics, especially Ti-Se ones, are viewed as little soldiers, following a system blindly. So the two definitions of Ti are in a fight. My reasoning is very logic and rational, and in arguments people tend to accuse me with personal illogical attacks, because they get irritated by my logic. But at the same time my girlfriend (a clearly ethical type) accuses me of being incoherent. It's because I take into account the different situations, and all the elements, while she is like "if you say X it's wrong" without thinking about the specific informations that may influence the situation.
Te: Even though I'm good at making things more efficient, in some occasions I just erase everything because I feel the system is wrong from the roots. I'll make a stupid example. Playing Skyrim, a rpg were you could create different classes of characters, I always had to project the future build of my characters before creating them. If a character was a magician, but I droppend a beautiful blade from a monster, I would never use the blade. I didn't want to gain levels in the "one handed weapon) category. Precious levels that could be used in magician skills. Actually, those few points wouldn't have made a practical difference, but they made a huge difference inside my head. Character X was a mage. He had to use magic. This is it. If I wanted to use a blade, I had to create a new character. And it's funny, cause I've read that Te wants people to have a specific place in society, so maybe this example explains some Te-valuing, lol. I don't know. It's up to your interpretation. An example of Te would be my relationship to following a sports team. Most people are very emotional about it, while I mostly care about the economics side (that's one of the reasons why I started studying economics at the university, lol. My passion for politics was another elements too). When my teams sells an old but strong player I'm happy for tons of reasons. Other people get mad.
Fi: Until a few years ago, when people invited me at a soccer match, I used to make a list of the people partecipating, dividing them into "positive people" and "negative people". If the positive ones were more than half the people, I would go. I think this is a pretty extreme example of Fi-valuing. When I see injustices, it comes natural to me to react, even if it doesn't affect me. I envy the people that are able to keep on their own, without caring. I'm pretty extreme about it. I got the belief that evil people like pedophiles don't only need to die, but they have to do it in a horrible way. They should be tortured slowly. If this would be the punishment, I believe there would be less horrible behaviour. I don't know if I like using Fi. These are thoughts that come natural to me. I mostly like it when other people notice that a person is behaving horribly, and start cutting the person off.
Fe: My head explodes when there's too much emotional expression. Positive or negative. I don't know what to do. I'm also unable to understand the emotional environment. I'm so stupid emotionally-wise that when I mock other people because I want to joke, they often end up crying. I would like positive emotional feedback (not too much!), but I often don't realise that trying to make some people laugh means making the "victim" cry. It happened the other week too, at the restaurant. I was making my gf and my sister's bf laugh, but at the same time mocking my sister. When I noticed she was nearly crying I stopped, but it was too late. I'm trying to fix this behaviour. People always tell me "you really don't understand other people's emotions, but at the same you're cranky and touchy if we talk about you". There's another thing that may relate to Fe. Maybe to Fi, I don't know... I really don't care about other people's life. They're details are not something I care about.