Originally Posted by
Shay
My choosing a quadra is also difficult...on paper Alpha more than Delta seems to fit - with me being an NT or NF but really I am unsure of what I am seeking from another.
How do I notice my dual in real life or upon the forum? Hopefully I am married to my dual but there are no guarantees.
I admire people who accomplish things in this world, those things which I struggle with such as easily getting what they aim for in life. I appreciate people who can cook for me, those who get jobs they so desire and can ask for pay rises or promotions and receive. I like it when someone close to me actually cares about me and my health - though please don't go too overboard - like massages do nothing for me. I appreciate someone who will take me out for nice food and coffee with good conversation, minimal swearing and sufficient laughter.
I may on occasion refer to how stupid something is that somebody does or thinks and I may even say it to that person though this usually only occurs when I am very upset as mostly I try to use my manners and be polite.
For myself also, childhood was not easy...abandoned by a father who renamed his child with the next woman my name...not even knowing for sure that he was my father...a mother who did not want me nor love me nor gave but the rarest physical touch...told almost daily that I was not wanted, shouldn't have been kept, should have been given away....being taken to another country and given quickly a new surname and father figure...made to earn my own keep in varying degrees until the age of 15 when I then provided totally for myself living on my own.
As a child I was not allowed my thoughts or feelings to surface or punishment was increased...somehow my sister was allowed her screaming and loud tears but my silent ones were not acceptable.
But guess what...I would not change any of this...I am not angry nor sad nor a victim for I have learnt much and can see the joy in any situation and the positive qualities from others that were at times sent my way...I try to look on the bright side and don't too much appreciate those who want to display their negative emotions to others outside of those close to them...people have enough negativity in this world without loading more in anothers realm.
Don't be fooled though as I believe that everyone is entitled to their feelings...it's just don't force them upon others lives.
Does this all seem Delta or even maybe Alpha - I am not sure.
Really this is not just a response to Iris's post above but a sharing of some of my values.
So c'mon guys (& gals) - what quadra would this all be associated with?