Originally Posted by
Regicides
They would send me to preschool programs, but they noted I had significant difficulty behaving in a structured setting with other kids, simply ignoring rules and collective behavior and often cringing, as if in pain, when coerced against my will. I was quite insensitive and loud when I was challenged, and it seemed as if my only desire was to sit in my own corner and play with my own toys forever.
Soon the paraprofessional support faded away, but I never really integrated myself socially into any groups. Perhaps I never desired to, I hadn't learned or felt a strong enough desire to bond with other friends. People have noticed I chronically ignore clear offers of affection. Some said I couldn't read the signs, but this has dissipated over the years.
I don't see humanity inside the people around me.
I largely ignore group social rules or unwritten etiquette, mainly because I fail to recognize it. If it's not explicitly stated on a big, lit sign, it's not fact.
especially for my complete disregard for group dynamics.
As I've said before, my kneejerkiness stems from a chronic sense of weakness which I attribute to Extroverted Ethics, although I could just be an autistic ENFj and I can't read these social rules.
I have little knowledge of what people think of me.