I have no idea where this topic should go but I have decided to put it here as it provides insight into the way I view reality and because of it should fall under socionics discussion.
I think in shapes or structures. Everything I experience can be expressed through these shapes. A shape is everything that a particular phenomenon I observe is, but in one place, in a lump. It's as if all the elements that make up that phenomenon have fused into a new entity.
By observing this entity I am observing the phenomenon, or more specifically the phenomenon's essence. I will look at it and realize that for instance only that and that part of it is currently displayed. I can see those parts that are not on display.
This causes me problems with people as they say either convinced by one way or another that "Naturally it is like this". Then I say "No, it is not, that is only a part of it" or "No, it is not a part of it at all". It's worse when it is with accepted dogma because I can see that what they are talking about is a completely different shape and it has nothing to do with the other shape or that this part of the shape is shared with another shape or that they are ignoring other parts of the shape and thus turning it into another shape an so on.
It's like looking into a room where somebody is telling you that "This black couch is splendid" when they are pointing into a white refrigerator. I mean, wtf??? Can't you not see that that is a refrigerator??? What do you mean it's not, are you blind??? It's a goddamn refrigerator idiot!!! and so on.
But these shapes can be literally anything. A sentence "Today is a nice day", the act of pushing a chair, a smile from a particular person at a particular moment, a mathematical concept, anything. They are the essence of those phenomenons.
When I approach things, reality, I approach them always from this angle, the study of essence. It's like another form of sight really. Almost everything can be expressed through this mode (And more).
These phenomenons change over time, they are dynamic. Some more then others. Some are totally static. They are also dependent on their interaction with other shapes. Just like real matter we observe, they can collide, fuse and so on (Even though I observe this in a different manner it describes the process adequately).
I can examine these shapes. I can take one and observe it for instance. Isolate it. If you have to picture them in 3D do, but they are not like that. These shapes can have height, emotional state, potential, color, roughness, arousability, any quality conceivable that they wouldn't in the concrete world. For instance I will observe a sentence and it will have height and flavor.
Often my physical and mental conditions limit my ability to examine, experience them. For instance I can look at a mathematical concept and just KNOW that it is there somewhere but I just can't find it. It can get very frustrating.
I never give up because I know it is there, I can see, sense it is there but the words, the equation is missing.
Examining these shapes is a form of acquiring knowledge. It is just as valid as observations of concrete reality even though it is in my mind and thus should be subjective. But so are our eyes in our head, but they are reliable, consistent, this is the same. These are eyes in my mind. Any these shapes totally correspond to reality, just differently viewed.
When examining these shapes I use my cognitive abilities to process them. Just like with things I see with my eyes I still have to understand them first. I do that by either absorbing them or by examining them.
Absorption is accepting something as it is. It's like seeing a rhino and accepting it as a rhino. But there is no way to describe it, convey it to others. You have to do that by examination. That way when somebody says "Rhino big!" you say "No, rhino small, rhino chubby, big nose..." and there you go examining the shape in order to find a way to convey it to others.
That's why I do not accept examinations as understanding as one has to absorb something in order to comprehend it. With examination it is separate from you and you may misjudge it. But with absorption you may absorb a different thing like a hypo and you will cal it a rhino.
Also even though I can "absorb" them, these shapes are not a part of me, they exist independent of me, just like that rhino would.
But the world of these shapes is not simple. The nature of these shapes varies. These shapes behave just like matter does in our everyday world.
Sometimes, often actually, I see shapes and fail to notice that it is in a great big web and a small part of a larger thing. This larger thing is not a shape itself for some odd reason. But it can be made into one.
An example would be mathematics or behaviour of an individual. These shapes behave like puddles. There exist separate puddles and you cannot enter other puddles from the one you are in. But these puddles form structures that cannot be expressed through one shape. The parts form a whole but are separate. You have to link them yourself and over time a bigger and bigger understanding develops. It's like assembling a jigsaw puzzle. Shapes assembled like this behave like normal shapes.
Concrete example would be like seeing a pile of stones, then another pile, and another and soon you realize they form a pattern and through your cognitive capabilities you try to find out what it is. It takes time for you to be able to see the entire structure.
But once able to be put in a form of a shape (when you are able to see the pattern) they can be absorbed in an instant.
Sometimes they are in the shape itself. The same thing as before, the parts form a whole but are separate, but this time I can see the whole and not the parts.
Again this is hard to spot and one needs to use ones cognitive abilities to notice it.
An example would be trickery. It often hides in phenomenons and are hard to spot. You think you've spotted it but it keeps hiding. As if it were alive*.
These shapes are independent of space and time. They can simultaneously be in several phenomenons and can simultaneously exist in different states. You can observe them in the past, in the future, in the present, as a part of something, independent, they exist in every state conceivable and any moment conceivable.
*Which brings me to another issue. I am pretty certain that among these shapes there is life. Just like when you observe and see a cat, it doesn't take long to see it differs from a rock.
So it is with these phenomenons. Some are alive.
Shapes of people and stuff are not always alive here as often they do not realize they are in this world. They change and shape according to how other shapes influence them. Just how a collision is unavoidable to matter they seem to be unable to alter course.
But some shapes are alive, they change course and navigate in this world. But the interesting part is that they are not necessarily alive in our world. I think most moral concepts, evil, good, trickery and so on are alive. And I think I noticed a couple of these in mathematics also. But I don't know, I could be attributing more to their behavior, existence then there really is.
Well, there you go . If somebody has any questions feel free to ask.