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What is beauty? What is love?
(Firstly, I'm sorry if I'm dumb, or ignorant, or annoying: I'm just trying to learn. )

I often feel...unqualified to answer these questions. Perhaps it's a certain time in my life (I'm 15) where I'm unsure of most things; and therefore such an open question would lead me to second-guess or constantly re-evaluate my decisions, even if they are instinctive.

Beauty is so subjective; but I think it's also sometimes on a sliding scale of subjectivity. Sometimes we can feel a common feeling of beauty is something that is so much more than aesthetically pleasing: whether it be a song that speaks how we feel; a piece of artwork that comforts or awes; or the smile of a loved one. However, not every song will speak to me like it does to you; not every piece of artwork may soothe my brain like it does yours; and hell, you may not have any loved ones, so the latter is not beautiful to you. So while we can feel a common ground in the sense of beauty, beauty is inherently too subjective to be defined as a completely common factor within - as that's what beauty is: within. It also may take many shapes and forms and feelings and thoughts: I cannot attest for anyone else on what they find beautiful, for I have only one true perspective: my own. This may seem counter-intuitive to what I wrote earlier; but I still think that people find a lot of common ground in some senses of beauty; but their own true sense is indescribable and non-reciprocal to others.

Love...I'm often confused about love - the only thing I know for certain is that it's a chemical reaction in the brain - but it links to beauty in a lot of ways, I think. I'm wary to say more of it because I don't feel like i'm old enough to make too many comments on love (and "tru luv!!") what can I say, I'm confused a lot of the time.
What are your most important values?
I'm not sure if I have many...they always seem to change with new information or new ways of thinking...however, keeping an open mind is one of my biggest values. With an open mind, one is always re-evaluating and learning and thinking; the mere concept of being open-minded also signifies humility and intelligence. Thus, it can be said that all of my values stem from one core one: if you keep an open mind, you treat people as individuals, as you pay no heed to stereotypes or other's impressions of the person before you've met him. And although it is human nature to latch onto an ideology, with keeping an open mind you can separate what is dogma to what is the truth; what is harmful, what is good. And also, you can fully accept that sometimes people just accept dogma..it is, like I said, human nature: and i'm not going to pretend i've never made a mistake; nor will I pretend that everything I think or say will be the absolute truth. Always learning, and human mistakes are human nature; open-mindedness forgives this.

(i feel like I've said that phrase too much...bleh)

So yeah, I guess I'm pretty big on thinking for yourself, being open-minded, and treating people as individuals; and not as a race, a gender, a social background etc.
Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
Not really. I don't like religion as a whole (the actual teachings, not the people) and feel as if it's interesting to study to see how much influence it has had, or what its core values are; but indulging in it seems quite dangerous. I feel no need for religion; nor do I feel any need to believe in a god.

I'd call myself agnostic. I don't know enough about the universe to make a judgement; nor does anyone. Perhaps the universe is way too complex for puny human brains to even begin to comprehend. Perhaps another universe is a cause of this one; or this one, a cause of another. Maybe it expands, gets to a point of maximum expansion, then shrinks again. But then where did everything originally come from? Something can't come from nothing...or so we think. Then again, by that logic, a creator can't come from nothing; rendering the belief in any god invalid.

But I can't make these statements because I do not know. Maybe God is the energy; the relentless lifeforce that makes this Universe work. Maybe he is the creator; maybe neither. I simply do not know, so I don't attach any belief to anything. All I have is speculation; which is what the above is.
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Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
Of course! Having a healthy body and a healthy mind is important; both are too complex to not have functioning properly: so many things rely on it. Besides, learning about nutrition is extremely interesting.
What do you think of daily chores?
I wish I could find a way where I didn't have to do it. I wish I could invent a system that made them unnecessary...but I'm too lazy and too dumb

So yeah, I find them monotonous and dull.
Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
I recently read Revolutionary Road. What a fantastic book

Yates's prose is the best thing I've ever read. As I was reading alone, I realised how fantastic some of the sentences were and how I'd love to be able to write like that, and it just made my mind whizz. For people to manipulate language to evoke such understanding and realisation in a reader...as well as that, the book has some really insightful knowledge into the human psyche; the choices we make, the thing we use to justify these choices, what happiness is.
What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
I felt like crying today because I looked at my school picture and I was really ugly. lol.

It's just quite depressing, not liking the way how you look: and I can't blame the media for unrealistic body expectations, because I'd be happy to just be a 6/10. Hell. (Oh god, I know you can't place any sort of objectivity onto subjective beauty: but like I said, my perception is screwed; and the general consensus seems to place me as average. Idk if they're being kind or not, and idek why it matters so much, but it does.)

Plenty of things make me smile: a joke, a realisation, a good thought, anticipation, pure joy, etc, etc. The chance to learn something new; sharing good memories with friends, all that jazz. An amazing journey of thoughts and emotions; a particularly smart structure...it goes on.
Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
I'm not sure whether a sense of belonging is purely down to the environment; it all seems to be a state of mind for me. Of course, I like nature - I'm in love with forests and mountains - but I also like cities, rural environments...I enjoy a sense of novelty, and adventure, and serenity. These places seem to give space for thinking and breathing and even comfort; but that could just be a state-of-mind influenced thing. A lot of people who don't live in the greatest places still feel like they belong. There are a lot of factors; but it does seem to boil down to an overall state of mind.
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What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
I'mma just copy and paste what my friend said (I can't write about myself.)

"You're funny. Intelligent. Amazingly perspective at times. Very open minded and not judgmental. You have a thirst of knowledge and a craving to understand the world. You have a tight grip on reality but know when you need to loosen up. However because of this you can get distracted and cease talking to people. Sometimes you let logic get in the way of emotion and you tend to dismiss your emotion because of that. You don't open up to people because of that.

You try your best to not lash out of people and avoid confrontation when you can. When you do get in an argument, you try not to let your emotion get in the way and argue your points almost stubbornly. Despite this, you can feel doubtful of yourself, and feel self-conscious afterwards."
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If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
That they'd be susceptible to not thinking for themselves, and miserable. I'd teach my child to think for themselves, and to analyse and question everything. Love and a community is immensely important, of course, but with critical thinking, a child could ask: is this community actually good? Can it change? Are its agendas right? Such values as love and forgiveness are important; more so when paired with knowledge and critical thinking.
A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
I shall chastise him with the valour of my tongue.

Well, I'd like to analyse what they said first...context and all. If they are truly wrong, I won't hesitate to have a little debate about it; and i'll most likely be relentless, yet I'll try not to be too much of a dick about it. Sometimes I think I go a little all out and I may or may not feel bad about it afterwards, even if I know I'm right...I'll only use what I see to be a logical standpoint; and even though it's illogical to be sorry for others being upset by logic (lol) I'd still feel bad afterwards.
Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
I prefer to see people as individuals, like I said, but I cannot deny that within a group there is a certain mindset - how could it not be so?

I often feel removed from society. I exist within it but do not always wish to conform to its ideals. I want to work to make it better...yet still feel not completely attached to it. It's like I exist in my own little bubble of thoughts and ideas, and society just exists and something i'm aware of but do not partake in.
How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
Morales, outlook, intelligence?

We go to the same school and just sort of gravitated toward one another. I don't really have any friends outside of school.

I behave myself around them: I think I may keep the, um, "deeper" (wow, much pretence, such arrogance, wow) parts to myself. I sort of go quiet and in a bubble when upset, despite wanting to tell someone about it. The awkwardness of adolescence (or, perhaps just me) dictates this as to be unattainable for now, though.
How do you behave around strangers?
Cordial; a lot more reserved than friends.