I thought I'd feel okay
After a little while
But that wasn't in me
There's always something burning
I thought I'd feel okay
After a little while
But that wasn't in me
There's always something burning
please god kill me now
i'm just wasting my time
crash my car into a tree
go on a shooting spree
take a knife and drain my life
i don't care if i live or die
everyone's ghosting me
what the fuck is wrong with me?
complain and whine and scream
no life no self-esteem
i'm crying on the floor
i don't wanna be alone
load a gun and put it to my head
pull the trigger and paint walls red
i saw you the other day
i don't wanna feel this way
I got blood in my motherfuckin' pen
I don't need no fuckin' homies, I don't need no fuckin' friends
I just need my money stacked up, hopefully it don't bend
Get out of your ovaries, I been in that n****s since Flo Tease
Since I did that with the poetry
She's out like a bomb and it's blowing me
People looked over me, I'm dedicated like overly
Overly, fuck a local I'm a globally phenomenon and it's lonely
I'm on my bag like some groceries you just know I'm totally focused
So if I don't see you you ain't close to me
N****s is ghosting me, Snapchat, logo rap dad
N****s not even half that
I was made like a lab rat
An experiment, government like you can’t have that
Better duck n***, Aflac
Living fast like Bill Elliott
Hate my life and I'm yelling it
I'm nothing but a wannabe rockstar
I'ma crash doing 210 in a Nascar
I don't wanna go to school
I don't like that
Everybody hates me there
I know that's a fact
♪ Love is a stranger in an open car. To tempt you in and drive you far away. ♪
I'm so alone
I have no one to call my own
And I don't feel at home
No matter where I go
Someone said that she's out there
A girl for me but I don't know where
I don't think I'll even try
My only wish is to die
And when I'm gone
Can you do one last thing for me?
When I am dead
I want a burial at sea
I wanna get better but I don't know how
Wanna get better and I need to now
I think I'm out of options
It's time to pay for my sins
I'm going out
In one final blaze of glory
This is the end
The final chapter to my story
When you shoot aim for the head
Please make sure that I am dead
Put ten bullets in my chest
Lay my weary soul to rest
My lord
Hallowed be thy name
Be thy strength that got me through the hardships and the pain
My cup overrunneth
I'm losing faith never
And I will dwell in the house of the lord forever
Now you ain't like me
We don't speak the same
Suck it easy
That's the tip, you can keep the change
I'm a god, I'm a avenue
So tell them never for me, that's what Kappa do
R-Ready have a main-chick that's with 'em
Make them boys t-turning heads, that's the exorcism
Our Father up in heaven, he told me to listen (Listen)
For those tryna double-cross me, no crucifixion
Losing faith never
Yeah, yeah
That's nothing but a way of life
Survive them dark days, yeah, and the nights
The stood up on the burning field
My life then been through many turns like the steering wheel
Yeah, n**** I'm focused
This n**** don't know this, we gon' notice
You walk with some chains from that invoice
I guess J was right that being slave was a choice
All along, I've felt an invisible hand guiding my errant heart
I consume and am consumed in part
late for my class again
don't care about the shit that i'm learning
and all the kids here are so uptight
picking fights thinking that they're so fucking bright
smoking weed, binge drinking
so degenerate, what are they thinking?
it's all a big waste of time, i hate this place
they need a kick in the face
sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts
sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts
late night, go out
try to see what the night life is all about
it's all stupid drunk ass kids picking fights
trying to get girls to suck their dicks
it's just a big adult day care
paid for by their parents, it's unfair
no one really wants to be here
wasting their time for a shitty career
sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts
sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts
In these flowers I found you, the truest red that I'd ever seen
Until you cut yourself on their thorns
You winced and, I kissed you
I kissed your palms and we both laughed
So unaware of the gathering storm
I think I have pneumonia
Hit the nicotine like oh ya
So I think I have pneumonia
I think I have pneumonia
I won't go to a doctor
But I think I have pneumonia
I think I have pneumonia
It was nice to know ya
But I think I have pneumonia
I'd rather die than quit
Whole life has fell to shit
I smoke, I vape, I dip
I've become a real addict
It makes me feel so strong
I hit it all day long
Fuck weed, don't pass me a bong
Don't tell me that I'm fucking wrong
Don't care what happens to me
I'm fucking happy, leave me be
Don't tell me what to do
I do what I want fuck you
WE WILL RAISE OUR SWORDS HIGH ON THE BLACK WINTER NIGHT, SING THE POWER AND GLORY FOR ALL
WE WILL NEVER SURRENDER, WE STAND STRONK AND FIGHT, FOR THE KING AND THE CROWN WILL NOT FAAAAAAAAALLLL!
You are not a warrior
You are just trash
You are a social justice fag
You are not a warrior
You are just trash
You are a social justice fag
I'm not your friend
Or anything, damn
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
I'm not your friend
Or anything, damn
You think that you're the man
I think, therefore, I am
I can’t tell you how I feel.
My heart is like a wheel.
If you knew that you would die today
If you saw the face of God and love
Would you change?
Would you change?
If you knew that love can break your heart
When you're down so low you cannot fall
Would you change?
Would you change?
How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses how much regret?
What chain reaction
What cause and effect
Makes you turn around
Makes you try to explain
Makes you forgive and forget
Makes you change
Makes you change
If you knew that you would be alone
Knowing right being wrong
Would you change?
Would you change?
If you knew that you would find a truth
That brings a pain that can't be soothed
Would you change?
Would you change?
How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses, how much regret?
What chain reaction
What cause and effect
Makes you turn around
Makes you try to explain
Makes you forgive and forget
Makes you change
Makes you change
Are you so upright you can't be bent
If it comes to blow
Are you so sure you won't be crawling
If not for the good why risk falling
Why risk falling
If everything you think you know
Makes your life unbearable
Would you change?
Would you change?
If you'd broken every rule and vow
And hard times come to bring you down
Would you change?
Would you change?
If you knew that you would die today
If you saw the face of God and love
Would you change?
Would you change?
Would you change?
Would you change?
If you saw the face of God and love
If you saw the face of God and love
Would you change?
Would you change?
Find somewhere pure
An island in the sky
Be on my own
And make me feel alive
You seem so sweet, you sweep me off of my feet
But when you're indiscreet I land face down on concrete
You're nice to look at when you yakety yak
But as soon as I slack I get a knife in the back
So I don't want to rendezvous
I got an issue with you
Please don't misconstrue
That I got an issue with you
You seem so cute in your birthday suit
But when we get a room you leave too soon
You're nice to look at when you yakety yak
But as soon as I slack I get a knife in the back
So I don't want to rendezvous
I got an issue with you
Please don't misconstrue
That I got an issue with you
Trust issues
Trust issues
Trust issues
Trust issues
Since the time we saw the sign,
Destruction of your feeble mind,
Centuries have come and gone, but nothing's changed
Hopes and dreams have disappeared
Destruction of your kind is near
Trapped inside your suffering eternal flame
I think I saw you in my sleep
I thought I heard the door open, oh no
I thought I heard the door open
But I only heard it close
I thought I heard a plane crashing
But now I think it was your passion snapping
I've been working all day no time to play
My head aches and I'm barely awake
I drag my feet across the floor, man I feel so sore
Too tired to wonder what I'm living for
And I rest my weary head
Upon the pillow on my bed
I dream a sleepy dream (on my pillow)
I rest my tired feet (on my pillow)
I caress my pillow when I sleep (on my pillow)
I suppress the feelings deep in me (on my pillow)
Ooooo never getting better
Ooooo brain is in the shredder
Ooooo never getting better
Ooooo always and forever
My memory is gone
It all feels wrong
I think my brain is broke
I'm getting so slow
I'm so fried
Surprised I haven't died
What the fuck?
Ooooo never getting better
Ooooo brain is in the shredder
Ooooo never getting better
Ooooo always and forever
You're not rid of me
Yeah you're not rid of me
Yeah you're not rid of me
Yeah you're not rid of me
I beg you my darling
Don't leave me
I'm hurting
Lick my legs
I'm on fire
Lick my legs of desire
I'll tie your legs
Keep you against my chest
Oh you're not rid of me
Yeah you're not rid of me
I'll make you lick my injuries
I'm gonna twist your head off, see
Till you say don't you wish you never never met her
Don't you don't you wish you never never met her
Don't you don't you wish you never never met her
Don't you don't you wish you never never met her
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
I had a dream about a boy
He had a dream that he would disappear
He wondered, "Why are we here if we're gonna disappear?"
Why are we here?
Why are we here?
Why are we here?
Why are we here?
He was on a bridge when he had this fear
He thought everybody had lied, an he was gonna disappear
Why are we here?
Why are we here?
Why are we here?
Why are we here?
He loved someone and she had this fear, and the two of them
Did disappear
Why are we here?
Why are we here?
Why won't you fuck me, why won't you fuck me?
Why won't you fuck me, why won't you fuck me?
Why won't you fuck me, why won't you fuck me?
Why won't you fuck me, why won't you fuck me?
You would fuck anything
A loser with a fucking tattoo sleeve
A story about doing LSD
But you won't fuck me
Why won't you fuck me, why won't you fuck me?
Why won't you fuck me, why won't you fuck me?
Why won't you fuck me, why won't you fuck me?
Why won't you fuck me, why won't you fuck me?
Why won't you fuck me?
You would fuck anything
Why won't you fuck me?
Jesus fucking Christ
Why won't you fuck me, why won't you fuck me?
Why won't you fuck me, why won't you fuck me?
Why won't you fuck me, why won't you fuck me?
Why won't you fuck me, why won't you fuck me?
I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own confused and insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in.
I wanna feel the changes coming down.
I wanna know what I've been hiding in
My shadow.
You are so mean to me
You do it easily
You make it hard to breathe
And I just want some time tonight
To make you mine
Maybe our paths will intertwine
Not like those other guys, no
Not like those guys
I saw those scars on your thighs
And I cant stand it, the way they’re glaring
At those pics you were sharing
To them now they’re comparing
My depression's overbearing
♫And when you're gone, we want you all to know we'll carry - ON THE BLACK WIND FOREVER, WE RIDE ON TOGETHER, DESTROYING YOUR EVIL WITH FREEDOM OUR GUIDE♫
Got me spinning like a ballerina,
Feeling gangsta every time I see ya,
You're the king and, baby, I'm the queen of
Disaster, disaster
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Falling rain will hide the pain that lies beneath the burning flame
All hope is gone, so carry on, before the world will fall
Rise again to die in vain; now life can never be the same
Our own salvation drawing near, now hear the darkness call
Skies are falling, thunder storming, stand before the war
We're banished now to barren wastes, let's fight the demon hard
Riding on through blackened blood, we've crossed the endless sands
We sail away, our victory in hand
Stand here with me; together we'll be stronger
Side by side, we conquered lands, and stormed across the seas
Die here with me; we'll feel this pain no longer
For now and ever we will be
You tell me something I wouldn't hear
Tell me something I refuse to know
I didn't want to hear it
It didn't sound too good from here
It's the cover of a book
It's the cover I refuse to see
I didn't want to see it
It didn't look too good from here
I didn't think you'd notice
It didn't make a difference
If it mattered that much to you
It wouldn't matter that much to me
I tried harder than you could know
Was I there was I waiting
But that's me I forget sometimes
Are you never coming back
It's something I couldn't ignore
It's part of me everyday
It's something I couldn't say to you
Something that takes the breath from me
Something that makes me angry
Something that's cheap and dirty
Something that takes my strength away
And I blame it on you
I blame it on you
Lead me to the edge of night
'Til the dawn the end of time
'Til the fire blazing light
Shines again within our eyes
I have come from the distance
Where you can't see
It's there, believe me
Now let me in
Let me in
Let me in!!!
Who put a padlock on the cellar door? Let me in
I've been knocking, let me in
Who bricked off the chimney?
I can't hear you speak
I've been knocking and knocking
Let me in
Let me in
Let me in
Let me in
Let me in
Culture shock, future shock
Fuck yourself, choke yourself
Useless information occupies every open space inside your skull
I have brain damage, tell me do you too?
I really fucked up, man I wish I knew
Not to play videogames all fucking day
I wish I didn't eat junk food and stuff my face
I'm an idiot
I know I look like shit
I'm an idiot
I have irreparable brain damage
Last night I dreamt
That somebody loved me
No hope, no harm
Just another false alarm
Last night I felt
Real arms around me
No hope, no harm
Just another false alarm
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Now sheltered in shadows,
The quiet song of your breath stirs the dark
Your skin like a rose 'neath my hand
And I can't keep from wondering
Why nothing good could ever stay
Why faith feels like a fistful of sand
The man in charge is announcing
He'll be the one who saves the earth and feeds the poor
And when that promise is broken
The next in line with the same lies will claim the throne
For every step he takes, we get further away
From finding what we need to reach unity
With every word he says he condemns who we are
Depriving us from reaching our dreams
It's always this year's gift
Is it ever what I wanted?
Was I unhappy living in the past?
Has my growth been that stunted?
When to be ashamed is to be defined
And all this self awareness, the blind led by the blind
An empty conscience is sensitivity
I have to pretend I'm overcome with humility
It always comes on time
Not a second before the instant
But this year I think I'd rather be a relic
Than part of the present