... That's all
I never imagined... That I'd dislike going to school so much.
I never imagined... That I'd be so reluctant to go to school.
<- and this is coming from an ENTj. IME, Ni types have been prone to questioning their existence and falling out of daily life -- that is to say, skipping school and failing studies -- when they can't find an answer
Everything that has happened lately has left me completely speechless.
I feel like I've been deliberately left out.
Like I've been abandoned.
You guys... Are no longer with me.
You guys... Are no longer by my side.
Many things, many people... Chose to leave me.
Many things, many people... Decided that they didn't want me.
Even fortune has left me.
This is... Me.
A totally speechless... me.
I... Am not myself
As soon as I arrived at school
[ESTp] remarked on how I gaunt I look
<- this has happened to me numerous times over the past year, too
[Friend 2] said that I look dejected.
[Friend 3] also said... "And you call yourself a living being? You look like the living dead"
<- people tell me this almost as a matter of routine =/
Looking at the mirror... I also think that I look very drained of spirit.
I don't know... I don't know what's wrong with me.
Right now, I feel devoid of hope.