wait, do you hate everyone?...

No, we just don't show it. It's painful to show any emotion. And we'd be surprised if anyone asked us if we were "depressed" or "not having a good time", because we're still probably having a ball. But building on that, we are often oblivious to how we act towards people, and what others' think of us. If people don't like us, we don't understand it. Or most often recognize it. And worse yet, know how to fix it.

We can often act one way one time, then completely different another day, and honestly and truthfully have NO FUCKIN' CLUE THAT WE COME OFF ANY DIFFERENTLY THAN BEFORE. I have literally had people ask me, "What happen to the funny guy I knew yesterday?" And it's only at that point when I realize something wrong. Or even different.

We're oblivious.
YES.

I am so completely oblivious to how I come across to people. Many times I think 'oh, they really like me!' only to know they're thinking 'she's such a bitch'. It really is quite shocking to me. I've become so self-conscious of this, I can no longer 'be myself' around the majority of people. I'm always asuming they're thinking negatively towards me. I guess i'm just projecting it onto them so i'm bringing it upon myself. It's gotten me in trouble at many of my jobs where being a phoney, two-faced, bubbly idiot is what you're expected to be. That's just not me and never will be. I really am sick of putting on the act. Sometimes I just wish people would leave me alone....forever. ha.