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Ok, so this is going to be long, and rather uncensored in some portions. But i feel thats for the better if im to learn anything here. Forgive me if i might offend you at certain spots.
what pisses you off in others? Someone who puts themselves as the top priority over those they are closest to. Hypocritical behavior. People who are driven to impress others, rather than improve themselves. Pleasure driven behavior. The concept of status or Image.
In yourself? My lethargicness. My inability to accomplish tasks i dont find stimulating.
What do you wish you did differently? Acted on Impulse more often, i couldnt tell you the amount of positive things ive passed up by simply thinking too much about it and psyching myself out, or passing up things that are offered because i dont want to feel like an added weight.
What do you admire in other people? To me, admiration is one of the emotions farthest removed from understanding. If i understand someone, they aren't viewed on a pedastool. I know there good qualities and i know their bad qualities. It all comes together as one cohesive ying yang balancing act and i try to appease the whims of their personality. Admiration on the other hand, is given to those we dont know fully, for traits we dont identify in ourselves. But traits that would be benificial to ourselves if we had them. With that said: I admire those who constantly start projects, and finish them. People who arent afraid to take charge of a situation, to lead. People who have the practicality to synthesize with their rational side and handle the mundane tasks that i ignore. And probably more so.
What do you like best about yourself? I am Kind. I feel good when i make others feel good. I can learn in my head, understand the variables of this and that and act appropriately. I bust peoples balls, all the time. Most people think im kidding, but normally im telling my truthful opinion - those who know me see i do so with good intentions. Its not until something is addressed can we act to change it, and shit, if they dont see it, Not telling them is only hindering them. And that inaction would make me a terrible friend.
What sorts of things are you best at/enjoy most? Once someone points out an insightful point or observation, i can absorb it and expand, Filling in the blanks and understanding the variables that can make the insight wrong or even more true than originally expected. Breaking down fighters in combat sports, understanding through watching and theorizing. Finding what it will take to beat them, and at the same time, what will never work. I think in motion. Im good with juggling and weighing concepts. Dealing with the subjective, while holding firm the humbling belief that nothing is objective. Im absurdly optimistic, with the occasional feeling of foreboding danger to keep me in check. Im good with kids, and im good with finding the words to describe how i feel about an issue.
What sorts of things are your worst at/enjoy least? Organization, Using the facts. Being a Host. Keeping my sense logic when im emotionally perturbed. Coming up with things to do. Being sensitive and tactful to things im not aware of. For instance: the occasional spousal abuse joke has backfired, as have the occasional rape joke. But, shiiit. Maybe that girl shouldnt have been drinking so much. How do you even know you were raped, when you cant even remember the night? Sounds like a not so well thought out excuse to garner pity from others, but i digress. And possibly apologize.
Is there a quadra you identify with (alpha, beta, gamma, delta)? I appreciate Random nonsensical nonsense. Like furry bunny barbarians fighting dragons on horseback for the throne of guatamala. Also, cartoon metaphors. I do that alot. But, mainly Beta now that ive found a way to look it up. Heated theoretical discussion, bouncing ideas back and forth with banter. The heated aspect comes from getting caught in the moment and the innate need to be understood. Not so much from anger or feeling that im right. I feel honest expression is key to understanding yourself, and therefore understanding others eventually. However, I dont deal well with serious confrontation. But rather i shy away from it until i tantrum.
Who do you think is a failure of a person and why? The Self-centered, uncompassionate. But other than those who live purely for themselves, i feel practically everyone is a balancing act of the good and bad that comes with different cognitive skills. Ti and Fe for instance both do certain things well and certain things bad. Ying Yang magic.
What qualities attract you? Hmm... theres so many qualities out there. If i was to break down the spectrum of personality into 4 aspects - the Abstract, the Down to Earth, the Deep, and the Edgy - I would choose the Deep and the Abstract. The down to earth i dont relate to, as im not here on earth. Im in the sky whisping around, and honestly i don't give a damn about your car or your shoes. And the deep is for emotional comfort. Someone who looks within themselves enough to be molded by the metaphorical water pressure that comes from being at the bottom of the ocean. Aka the morals and values deepest at their core.
What qualities repulse you? The Materialistic & the self-centered. These i am instinctually predjudice against. Also, the type of cowardice that comes from running away from the issues every individual knows they need to put in check the most. Since relationships are symbiotic exchanges with the people we love most, we effect the people we care for the most with our actions and thoughts. We exchange with those people more than anyone else(optimally). If someone doesnt have the resolve to handle his or her own worst qualities, i feel that person is selfish to the point where he or she is putting themselves ahead of who they are supposed to love the most.