Quote Originally Posted by Coolanzon View Post
Is 9~12 too late to be "early in life"?
No, that's actually one of the most impressionable ages as far as the early stages of forming your self-identity.

Based on what you're saying about your parents, etc., it definitely does sound like you've got some issues with your masculine side being repressed. Your subconscious takes that literally, and produces the dreams.

My completely amateur psychologist recommendation would be to take a martial arts class or something. You can't get comfortable with your masculine strength/aggression without actually getting out there and using it. But again, I'm not a certified psychologist or anything, so what do I know?