Originally Posted by
tereg
I would go out to take a jog but I just.... I just don't feel it.
I'm horribly uninspired, unmotivated... even, dare I say, unhappy right now.
And it's not the job, the job is good. I'm at a job also that pays well that is in an area that I do well in, where the other employees like having me around and where I feel like an integral part of the company. That's not the problem.
It's those stretches of days where I spend weekends without ever leaving my apartment, where I can't focus on things I need to do while I'm at work and I'm extremely unproductive. Weeks, months where I do the same things day in and day out without much variation. Sure, there's some variation but it's just not enough. It's just fermenting stagnation. Change of scenery? I think about that a lot, but then I think, is that really addressing the issue? Is that really going to fix the problem, because it's basically a band-aid.
I feel like I'm constantly wasting time. I try to work up the energy to start on a task, going "Ok, when I sit back down at my desk, I'm going to ____" and I sit down at my desk, and I just can't. And then some issue comes up at work that I get to work on for an hour or two unrelated to that "one thing" I know I need to work on, but yet it still feels like "Oh, cool, I finally did something somewhat productive. Ok, maybe I can finish _____ now." It's like I just won a small battle. Usually this is when there's not much going on at work and I have time to work on these side things.
It's not boredom. I have things that I know I can do. I've just been unable to get jump started on those things.
Even on more personal type of tasks. Like I the other day I started working on the IEE type description on the wikisocion (so that it can finally be finished!) and I actually wrote out the Ti and Se parts, and I was going to write out the Super-Id section after that, and I just couldn't get jump started to start writing it. I had everything out that I wanted to read over before I started, and I just couldn't really get through it.
That's where I'm at.