Dead, obviously.
Your problem is that you can't see the truth in other people's views. You can't accept that whatever their views, they each have a unique psychological perspective that leads to distinct form of truth.
The only way to judge such truth is its applicability on a large scale? Will it or will it not lead to effective adaptation to objective conditions? Will it or will it not support the growth of life?
Your truth cannot, and I see... no, I will not say it. It is true that I have basis for what I see... but it not socially acceptable. I will only predict... that 40 years hence, you will face your lie, and see it for the objective dishonesty it truly is.