I went to shopper drug mark for a conditioner, I saw a very cute cashier there. It kills me instantly, I wanted her. But I don’t know how to strive up a conversation with her. I was too shy; being shy and impotent frustrated me like someone scratches my heart with a knife and i coudlnt' do anything about it. I feel the pain so much, it is a chronical torture.

There is not way I can become a player instantly, I need to have a outgoing personality. Living like this is meaningless, and wasting life.