Am I a P or a J?
My general reaction, after doing tests and reading up about the types, is that I am an ISFP.
However, some things don't fit.
So I read ISFJ, and some things were accurate, but others were not. I appear to be a combination
of the two.
I am introverted, I think. Whereas I can sometimes be confident, most of the times, I'm more
comfortable in small groups than large. However, I'm not afraid of letting my voice be heard.
Although I am not confident in large groups of people, smaller groups - especially those I already
know, are fine.
However, I can be needy. Although I don't like a lot of attention, I love people being interested in
me. I love being able to talk to someone who is captivated in what I have to say.
I also love, LOVE confrontation. I believe that I am good at arguing, and will willingly argue my case
against anything. I'd willingly physically fight and hurt someone if the need arose - I wouldn't back
out of a punchup.
I can be a complete bastard at times also. I'm ambitious, and would lie, fight, cheat, anything to
get what I want. This isn't totally true in the workplace - I don't have huge career ambitions -
but with friends and in relationships, I find that I can be very manipulative. And sometimes I enjoy
it. I've stolen from friends, lied openly to people I respected, and I often do it without a care for
their feelings. In my current relationship, things are a little different - I feel much love towards
her - but I've manipulated even her slightly, so I'm not sure if it is entirely different at all.
I express myself in both words and writing. I've written many poems and songs before - many of
which i am very impressed with - and a habit of mine used to be to write a poem, or bit of
prose about how I felt, and then throw it away. It was very theraputic.
It says that ISFP are doormats, but this is not me at all. Nobody stands on me, and nobody will. And if they did, I'd let them know about it.
And through all of this, I'm a little shy, I get nervous and I am very open with my feelings. It's a horrible mix, and I can't find a type that suits me.
I appear to have confidence, but in larger groups, I'm shy and untalkative. I'm ambitious, but not career-minded. I'm manipulative and a good liar, but I find it very difficult to do these things to one I love. And where I may be a little quiet sometimes, and prefer to spend much of my time alone, I flare up, fight and argue whenever possible. I'm also expressive, although solitary.
So, what am I?