Yeah well, I am going to brainwash SEEs from now on, and I am going to find a place anorexics hang out.. I might even go to an anorexia support group, claiming my sister has anorexia so I qualify... and that I just need to talk about things.
SEE is the only type I remain attracted to over an extended period of time. I have tried getting along with people, I just hate them. Quite literally... the only type I think I do not show hatred toward is ESFp-Se. Even ESFp-Fi I usually end up in some kind of conflict with. I've had the closest thing to a dual relationship, an activity relationship... it was shity, and I hated it. Although it was with an ISFj-Fi.. not the better of the two subtypes. ISFj-Se may still be an option.
Other then that, no... I don't think I want to fall into a delusional/insane state of mind which most people call love, and end up five years later trapped in a dead and silent existance struggling to hold up something which is crumbling all around me. I would rather live alone forever. It's no coincidence 60% of marriages end in divorce now days. I think it's a safe bet to say 30% stay together but are miserable to some degree. These are marriages we're talking... regular relationships... they are a waste of time if they are not in your dual.
Maybe what you are telling me is this: learn to deal with some type of hell.
I don't want hell in my life, I'm not going to give up and give in to it. I would rather live life in a sensory deprivation chamber
Last edited by crazedrat; 03-28-2008 at 06:42 AM.
Crazedrat, go outside and get some sun. Talk to your buddies if you have them. If you'd be content to live without women, do so until one comes within reach.
Marriages don't end because people have love. They end because people are just stupid in general. You and me included. Now pull your head out of your ass, stop whining, and give yourelf a break.
It's counter-intuitive, but in thi regard, I find the best way is to focus elsewhere.
And this, too, shall pass away.
ILI
To be honest, I can relate and agree to everything Crazedrat has written in this post.
And yes, it's probably a sad thing, but it's also sincere. I think there are people who want to comfort themselves with the idea that any relationship is fun and can work out. Well, the reality is different and I don't like to deceive myself. Illusions are short term solutions.
Whatever floats your boat. :sigh: I can't say i haven't been there.
But what makes your pessimissm more real than others' hope? I could argue this point on a historical/statistical basis, but I'm not in tthe mood. Go drown yourself in your delusional darkness. Sink into the black, yawning pit you think is reality. I'll go do the same, only ill eat pie too.
And this, too, shall pass away.
ILI