Hmm, yeah I get what you're saying. My diagnosis would be...*drumroll* you are a postmodernist! Haha, sorry. Sometimes I think I'm more amusing than I am...
Seriously though, knowledge is pluralistic, and that knowledge can be eloquently expressed from a number of starting points, for a number of ends. Doesn't make any one strand
more valid than another. Are there any universal truth or facts? Or is it all subjective? Is it up to us, as thinking, feeling, functioning human agents, to have to choose what we believe in, and own up to that choice?
So yeah, I can justify why I sometimes act 'proud' even though I know it is not something I want to be. I could even possibly, if you catch me on a good day, do it so well I could convince myself and others of its veracity. But does that make it true? In a manner of speaking, yes. But does it make it one of my 'truths'? No. Does it mean I have contributed anything meaningful to the discussion? Definitely not.
Hmm...I have no idea where I was going with that. Or what relevance it has. Merp. Blame it on reading waaay too much on post-structuralism today...I can't help all this stuff burbling out!