Emphasis on "help". At this stage of the game (and maybe I'm impatient), something this important to me can't be done the easy way without me being haunted by the anticlimax. That's probably an invitation, but don't worry if you're having a mean streak--"disappointment is a way of life".
I have difficulty with logical systems. Going from point B to point A to get to the corner store to buy a point C makes about as much sense as A -> B -> C.
I have wildly variable energy that seems to be influenced to a very large degree by my surroundings. I tend to mobilize in situations where it's not likely that people will shoot me down with facts and correctness, and conversely shell up where they will. When I'm on a down period (like now), I can't imagine being my CAPTAIN WILDCHILD self, and I assume he shares much the same opinion of me
(I can fathom all that wild energy being funneled into creative expenditure, rather than just venting it off from having too much to hold on to).
My memories and imagination equally carry a strong emotional component, and I tend to get whisked away by them (like I'm living two lives, and my brain randomly gets distracted with the then/when life and focuses really intently on it, forgetting about the now life). I find this distressing, partly because I value the real world (and worry that my grip on it might be loosening) and partly because they're either bad memories or good fantasies (which tend to disappoint later, because I instinctively half-incorporate them into the real world).
I also find it hard to mobilize my desire for completion. It takes a truly dire situation (like two weeks before the Big Exams) before I shift off my ass and start going. I'd say the level of the "going" is fairly high, too, but mostly motivated by wanting to avoid the negative repurcussions of not killing a mosquito that's stopping me from sleeping or not studying for exams (which leads to many feelings of ineptitude when I get a stark 40% slipped quietly 'neath my nose).
Now, the bit where you can help. Analysis!
Paragraph 1: role function , so I can't sequence arbitrary "anythings". I love middles, because that's when everything's sublimed into a whiz-bang jumbled mess of possibility (that comment, one of the Fs?)
Paragraph 2: PoLR? But I get vibes of role function from the alter-splitting. I read somewhere that that can be making "living" simulacra, though.
Paragraph 3: Don't know?
Paragraph 4: Ignoring serving program ?
Final note: I know I use hazy language a lot to defend against statements of fact, unless I'm sure what I'm stating is fact too.
I'm 92% set on SEI, but my expertise is sorely lacking.
I really appreciate your help!
EDIT: sorry about the slightly clinical flavour of this post, but normally everything comes out as a jumbled hodgepodge half-narrative. That aside, I spent effort making everything accurate.