Oh Kristiina i didn't notice this post hidden away in Beta's Depths. Sorry ;(

Trust me things aren't as bad as they seem. If you are indeed ENFj you will soon learn that is not a curse its a blessing. Using your EGO block functions properly you should feel happy and confident.

You have had a major change in your perception of self. Have you ever heard of the saying, "one step back two steps forward?". When i learnt about i tried to let it go loose and i got a splitting headache for 3 days straight. Dont push anything just be yourself.

Btw i am still not 100% convinced of your type, in fact i never was. But i trust you to work it out.

Just relax and let it flow, is powerful if you know how to use it. You should go get a massage, start doing some exercise, do things you enjoy