Member Questionnaire (Earlgrey)

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Member Questionnaire 1 (Earlgrey)

What is beauty? What is love?

I think that beauty describes a feeling of peace one experiences when looking both within himself and outside himself. This arises from getting in touch with what one truly is by shutting off thought and focusing all of ones attention on the beautiful thing, and thus his sufferings disappear and a state of beautiful peace arises. Clueless about love though, maybe the ability to recognize beauty?

What are your most important values?

Ethics wise, I think values should be intrinsic. If one has to think about his values and they do not arise spontaneously, then they are probably not genuine. That being said, I like when everyone is in a good mood, polite, and pleasant. I have really no patience for moodiness, I like cheerful happy people.

Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?

I'm not religious but I have spiritual beliefs that basically came from Zen and Hinduism. I switched from philosophy to spirituality because philosophy just seemed to be words about words, rather than actually understanding the world on a deeper level.

Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?

I think power for the sake of power is egotistical, just to make someone feel important. I don't like yelling or dominating over people. When people yell when they're angry, I interpret it as having no emotional control. I don't like war, the military is bullshit, I want to move to Switzerland.

What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?

I'm probably a constructivist. I personally don't care about anyone's past, I'm indifferent about where you can from, I just want to learn from you. I'm very quiet with small talk, but if someone brings up their interests, even if it is not mutual, I tend to get very curious, and can talk for hours about almost anything provided I can learn somthing. I like a bit of quirkiness and absurdism in my conversations.

Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?

No, but I am very comfort focused and very aware of aethedics. I love to design and can spend hours rearranging my desk or room to reach a visual balance and perfection. The first thing I notice about a house, building, restaurant, etc. is the design and how it makes me feel. It seems like every living space has a vibe that my body is sensitive of. When walls are white and furniture is more minimalist, I tend to intuitively sit more upright, and fomalize, and when lighting is darker and colors are woodier, my body opens up, I relax, and my voice deepens. When design is to my liking, I become almost meditative.

What do you think of daily chores?

I do some with great pleasure and diligence: cleaning the espresso machine, tuning guitars, fixing things, getting dressed (works similarly to my design tangent), shaving, I love cooking and can spend hours striving for culinary perfection. I love the idea of making or doing something perfectly. I will often verbalize chores in my head, as if I am teaching them to someone

I ignore others: I don't make my bed unless I have to work in my bedroom and it irks me, don't like laundry

Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.

Wind and the Willows, Kenneth Grahame; Self-Reliance, Emerson; Malcolm Gladwell Books; Eckhart Tolle

I like nonfiction, never enjoyed movies

What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?

I can't remember the last time I cried, I smile constantly at other people, and can be overly polite and formal. I don't smile much on my own despite being happy. I smile when sailing, on rollercoasters, etc. I tend to laugh at everything.

Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?

Anywhere outside or a place of aesthetic perfection. Particularly looking up at the stars. Also when singing or listening to classical or ambient techno music.

What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?

I think too much and tend to care too much about appearing to be a competent, interesting person. I overthink everything, and lack some confidence in what I can do. I tend to avoid auditions and things like that because I'm afraid of pressure.

What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?

I'm witty, seem to know everything, creative, artistic, and I really don't brood or suffer. I enjoy life, and have fantastic self-control. I always try new things and can appear fearless in danger, but fearful in normal situations.

In what areas of your life would you like help?

I need someone to tell me I'm far better than I think I am, provided it is honest. I think I suck until someone compliments me or points of a talent. I want someone to tell me I am good enough.

Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.

No, what even is a rut? A period of boredom? Just go out and do something, find a hobby, read a book, learn an instrument, face fears, meet strangers. Your ruts are meaningless.

What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?

Hate moodiness, yelling, loud, pronounced emotions, can't deal with crying, complaining, etc.

Love quirkiness, enthusiasm, and accepting people.

How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?

I think it is a good temporary source of pleasure. I can be a bit cold romantically. I neither need nor hide from intimacy. It is something to be enjoyed in moderation, like wine. I need other people to take the initiative, I can't read emotional cues that well.

If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?

Making sure it was provided for. I'd encourage my children to think for themselves and generally ignore what everyone else is thinking. I would avoid having kids unless

A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?

I don't care, believe what you want.

Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.

I'm not really separate from society or people, I came out of society and am a part of it. Asking my relationship to society is like asking my cells how they feel about my body that they are part of. If they say they hate it, it gives them no real meaning to existence, what can they work for? it would be nonsensical. People are there, and I am one of them. To criticize people it to criticize myself. Starving kids in Africa, the fact that a hobo beggs outside of a multimillion dollar skyscraper.

How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?

If they like me and I enjoy being with them, they are friends. I behave how I feel like behaving, my entire personality is circumstancial.

How do you behave around strangers?

quiet, calm, witty, excessively polite.

I was pretty brief, ask if you need picture, videos, etc. Thanks so much!