Is there an information element most responsible for romantic thoughts or or romantic feeling portrayed through musical talent?
I know this is asking from a vague point of view, but I'd like to know if anyone can make this connection.
I tend to be pretty antisocial and sometimes I get worked up inside and get nervous from outer romantic influence, though usually that doesn't mean I've made any interaction, just that I felt a presence. When I get romantic feelings inside, it leads to me thinking about that person or that idea of romance and I think of places in which I've been to in my past. These places give me a nervous feeling inside. They're like flashes, and they are so incredibly ambiguous as to meaning, but I can see the details of the places. These places are usually outdoors, forests I've been to, local areas (which make me somewhat depressed), places from dreams, feeling tones in quick flashes of a place I've been to when young, places I remember but can't identify, and maybe in these places I've seen someone who gave me romantic influence, and right now I am realizing these feelings again. These places can usually be extremely irrelevant to the subject of my thoughts, but will somehow fit into the grand scheme of my "romance element." I can usually try to match these places up with a romantic quality of music, but the ambiguosity remains.
Discussion about it with unanimous person:
I can't believe we were talking yesterday after I came from church, because in the event of going to church, I felt extremely upset this morning
This had nothing to do with interaction or lack of interaction
Rather had to do with a romantic feeling inside that has been frequently expressed by mystical areas I've been
or local areas in my town, that give me a much rather depressed feeling
Person:
9:39
and what do you make of that
Me:
9:40
I get this feeling when a romantic idea comes into my head, say I notice a familiar person
The nervousness is vague ar first
at first
but later, when everything is over with, thats when I feel it
right as I leave the place
an upset depressed feeling
Person:
9:41
so you recognized something romantic, and don't really know what to make of it?
and you feel that way because you don't know what it is
Me:
9:41
this connects to things in my past though
places I've been
huge ambiguous places
like forests
places from my dreams
that all have an element of romance
connecting a person to them
a person who has never even been there
its an "out and about" feeling these places give to me that make me feel lost and upset
and yes I dont know what to make of it
all I can do is write a little tune on the piano and connect those things together
yet not feeling satisfied by the conclusion
Person:
9:43
would you feel satisfied if people felt the emotion you were trying to convey by the song?
Me:
9:45
The piece of piano music has almost nothing to do with it, that's why I find humor in music enthusiasts trying to understand the composer
Basically memories of things that weren't negative, but that give me a negative feeling