I'm very visionary. I usually know when something bad is gonna happen before other people do. I'm extremely intuitive. I kinda know what something is gonna before it happens (esp. if it's a negative thing), that's why I don't do much.... I need to be surprised, but I rarely am, because I know what's gonna happen. So, I tend to just sit and do nothing and write stories instead.

I just don't understand the mentality of the typical black dude 'real world' physical str8 man jock that does a million external things 'just to try it out' and goes crazy living in the world. I know it builds up a certain uhh 'hardness' and physical presence, but it also seems rather pointless. You know?

However, I miss the physical smells and the ambiance of some certain experiences. But it's more like I purely crave those things one at a time. It doesn't seem 'all over the map' to me like it does in some other people.... I just kinda think about it a lot until I gain up the energy to do it (or not, often times just dreaming/thinking is enough) when I really want something it's almost like I myself become that something.

people are just different. I know most people would self-destruct if they were me. They wouldn't be able to handle doing nothing and the raw meaningness I need to create my art with.