Hey.. well firstly, when i say sloppy, i mean, my room's in a mess, i dont take care of my finances, my shoes which should be washed are not washed, my hair usually gets too long before i cut them....

Dont have spiky hair and blond highlights though, i've more of a goth streak then a punk one.
Always wanted to go with the black nails and eye liner.
I blame Amy Lee, she makes it look so sexy.

Oh ya and i do have depression streaks too, although i usually just repress them and live with it.
Seriously think the only child thing screws with ones head.

oh and i write poetry and stuff. They are really emo, so ya, here's one of those below *read at your own risk*


My Dying Angel

The dying wave hugs the shore,
and I wished I did the same,
as I watch her fade away,
in the dark mesmeric sway.
I lay my heart unto the floor,
and watch it as it shatters once more,
for angels die as she does today,
What could i possibly say?
And there she lays,
sweet and silent,
she ripples through the day.

Even though i watch her drown,
I could never speak and say.
Perhaps you never knew,
Fondly I watched you each day...
I remember each time you laughed,
and every word you said.
The way you gently blush,
when beauty came your way.
I remember your broken heart,
and the little pranks you play.
But most of all i remember,
I never got to say...

That perhaps in the your search for love,
its me who loves you,
in every way.

.Joshua.