Member Questionnaire 1 (Araz)
What is beauty? What is love? For me what comes to mind is people and nature. I dont know. Beauty is in the eye the beholder honesty. Love. There are 4 loves. You know like Agape and Eros. As a whole its definitely not an emotion but more like something you do. Like a commitment or a work. Something you would die for maybe. But maybe something you could live for.
What are your most important values? Peace, calm, chilling, trust, love, truth, realness.
Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place? Been a Christian for about 8 or 9years now. I am the type that needs real proof for me. As a last resort of desperation, I called out to the one named Yahshua(Jesus) saying he'd give me rest and he answered and never backed out. I never felt empty since that very moment. I am forever grateful. I grew to know and love Him over time. I look forward to spending eternity with Him.
Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you? It is what it is. It can ruin a life. But it can also change for the good depending on whats going on. They happen for all types of reasons. Usually fear, money, or pride. Id rather not have it all but I know its a thing that happens and you just deal with. I often like war history and military. I like watching battles like LOTR or Ancient Roman and Greek stuff. I know its bad but I know good can come out of it. Which is lame that it has to be that way. It's just the way the world works.
Power is power. Its control. Its being at the top. You find it everywhere.
What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why? Things about the bible, and Elohim. Videogames. Music. People. Just all kinds of stuff really. I only have long conversations with people that can keep a conversation and they also have to have interest in the subject.
My interest is all over the place. Videogames, music, reading, eating lol, casino, doing nothing, exercise, guitar, history. If it catches my attention and I like , I do it (unless Im stopped from like money or something)
Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body? Yeah see previous question. I am focused on my body. I hate things like stomach pains and all that. I like to research healthy foods and recipes. I wanna stay healthy so my body doesn't stop me from doing what I want when I want. Even tho I like new things and experiences, I stay way from risky things just in case I hurt myself and ruin my body. Therefore ruining my chance to do things.
What do you think of daily chores? I dont mind it. If you keep it clean, you wont have to clean it for a while. Plus it keeps me busy and gives me a reason to listen to my jams and be left alone.
Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome. I've read the latest book from author Robert J Crane from the series called The Girl in the Box (or also called The Girl out of the Box)
I like the main character in it. The last film I watched was something I've already seen called the Pianist.
A few examples that come to mind: Treasure Planet(Disney), The Mummy(1999), Pirates of the Caribbean, LOTR trilogy.
What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why? Most of the tears is from the fictional. Books, movies, shows. Its hard for me to cry over others real life. A few times from when I was in a group setting and someone talks about Elohim and gets emotional (but in those moments I hold in. I dont show vulnerability to people outside of my mother and husband). Only a few times I cry for myself. Most time it's not from my own experiences.
It is easy to make me smile yet I dont go cheesing all over the the place just because. It has to be a reason. Tasty food and beverages, someone who smiles brightly at me can make me smile. People having a good time. The bright eyes of my siblings. My mothers laugh and jokes. Great fiction. Funny things. Memes. The simple good things. Beautiful things. Happy things.
Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging? I don't feel I belong here in a way. I feel out of place with other people. They dont see like I see. But yet I am no one special or highly unique. I feel most comfortable in my space, which right now is my room. Away from others.
What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself? I dont know what people see as my weaknesses. Only what I think of what they think of me. People around me just dont talk directly to others like that. Only when the person is not there. But what I dislike about myself is my inability to focus or have goals. I often start many things but never finish or master it. I can easily learn things but cant stick with it long enough no matter how much I am interested in it.
What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself? People dont mind telling good things about you though. Ive been told that I can stay calm during intense situations. I also like that about myself. I also like that I can see all sides yet keep my own opinions and judgements from changing. I'm open but not be pulled along by others will.
In what areas of your life would you like help? Motivation and focus.
Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it. Yeah Im sure I have many times. I cant think of any though...
What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with? I like when people have confidence. Kindness obviously. Someone who can have fun. I like people that understand emotion and feelings. I like honesty in people. I know someone who is mostly a terrible person but is honest and real that it doesnt bother me as much as it should lol. Somewho is a jerk and puts down others for whatever reason is annoying to me. Pretentiousness is annoying. Whiners who complain constantly and never wanna do anything about it are so annoying.
I get along with people that can just have a good time without being complete idiots. Doing activities together in a peaceful manner. I hate when people are constantly angry. Getting angry over small things. Excessive anger makes you illogical and blinds you. I dislike when people can't control themselves and end up causing others harm. Insecure people irk at my nerves because it often comes out in dangerous ways.
How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner? I love romance and sex although its not something I openly talk about or admit to others. Actually its on my mind majority of the time everyday. You would never know but it stays on my mind. I have a lot of self control concerning this.
In a partner, the qualities I like are a dominate, someone who initiates, talkative, open and honest who can say whats on their mind. Someone who thinks about the future and does it but can still enjoy the now. Someone intouch with their emotions and can bring out mine. Helpful and guiding.
If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why? Main concern is obviously if they are well fed and clothed. But also how I could teach them things. I would be untrustworthy of others around him/her because people can be like that. Untrustworthy.
A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction? Outward reaction: "Ah ok" and leave it at that.
Inward reaction: " Well, actually..." lol
I dont force myself on people.
Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one. Honestly I am a useless member of society lol. People as a whole are almost an enigma to me but also I get it. Its a weird balance of confusion and understanding. The social problem is the spiritual one. Everybody is the walking dead.
How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them? I don't have friends. I'm very picky concerning them. I dont know what it is to be a friend or what it means for someone to be my friend. Maybe associates is a better word, I have those. I behave in a surface level way. Just having a good time not getting deep or anything. Im pleasant and dont make any waves.
How do you behave around strangers? Reserved but not shy. Uninterested unless otherwise. I pay attention and observe. Getting a scope of them.