yeah Jewels I definitely relate to a lot of what you said (except maybe the wanting to be on TV as a journalist. . .dont know if i would be eloquent enough for that, though I AM always excited about the prospect on being on TV, just not in a role like that ).
One thing i am starting to notice a few months after completing my medical residency now is that I am suddenly starting to get original entrepreneurial ideas about what I want to do with my career. Especially towards the end of my residency I felt like I had sort of a mental block that way. I thoroughly enjoyed most things that I did, and picking one subspecialty over another seemed sad because I would never get to deal with all the other specialities again. And yet, I felt like sometimes doing primary care would get tedious, boring, in a way of just going through a checklist once things become routine, and having to see 10000 patients to make ends meet.
My one HUGE pet peeve about residency and the typical medical practice is the huge push by the industry to make physicians see tons of patients per day--an obvious money generating mechanism. I prefer to spend time with each patient, hear out everything they have to say, really think about things, make sure i dont miss anything, and really explain to them what i'm thinking and answer questions etc. I HATE being under time pressure for anything, but especially when it comes to my interaction with patients.
This is what has made me hesitate about choosing just general medicine or any field that would require me to see tons of patients per day. I have also realized that I like being in charge of my own time and, like jewels said, having free time to pursue my interests and passions and recharging.
So essentially, for a variety of reasons including those I listed above, I couldn't decide about doing any of the "usual" options that my colleagues tend to go into, but being so burned out I feel like I sort of had a mental block (possibly from all the superego use that I was compelled to employ to get through medical training). Right around now, I am starting to come up with great ideas (which I will keep under wraps for now ). One thing I will say is I definitely want to be my own boss, so life can be as flexible as I want it to be, and I want my job to be original and have a meaningful impact in people's lives. Except I could really use an Si type right now to give me advice about how to best get there, practically.:frown: Kinda at a loss there. . .