So for 2 years i thought i was an ISFP, and suddenly I am finding out I am not. I have extreme emotions and care/feel extreme sympathy for complete strangers. Seeing one overly fat person will ruin my entire day, because i feel so bad for them. Seeing one disabled person, one beatin down person, etc. etc. Anyways, so im really sensitive. I cry in movies, but not like cry cry, just like i tear up constantly. Music also often brings those tears. I have sudden moments of extreme emotion derrived from various art forms it seems. I love art. I am a filmmaker. Pretty much obssessed with emotion and experiencing it to the fullest extent i can. However, most of the people who know me well call me a complete asshole very often, as i very often am, i freely admit. Not something i am proud of in any way, and i work hard to stop being such a asshole and have improved much...lol. I like to bring people down who think to highly of themeslves. I am a defender of the underdog, but the one who pushes the underdog down or feels they are much more amazing than they are, i feel the need to push them down under the water and hold them there till their self estimation comes down. I shut people down quickly in arguments. I have strong opionions which i defend harshly. I feel the need to often do things againsts peoples "morals" that i dont find to be morality but rather bullshit. For instance - people who dont like "swearing" i like to swear a lot around, etc. etc. In high school i was the man for some reason, everyone kind of followed my need to the point where when anyone did anything bad in the school, the authorities just sent me to the office knowing somehow it came down to me since apparently i was the influence for every bad thing that went on. Everyone kind of followed my lead or whatever. I dont think i was really trying to make that happen. I have no idea. Just kind of happen that way. I was the kid with the messy hair who never took showers and ate old bread out of his locker. I liked to do things that were purposfully anti-everything anyone could be about or whatever. If everyone is wearing these certain type of clothes, i wore other types, etc. etc. I never even showered hardly, like maybe once a week if that. Just a really gross high school kid, but everyone followed me around and did and said whatever stupid thing i said and did...
As a young kid and till now however i have been very emotional, and feel sorry for people very very often. When another kid would be being made fun of or something, i always felt really really bad, unless i was doing the beating down. But i only liked to beat down people with my words who were overly confident in some way.
Also see the threads my friend already posted about me...
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